backdated to mid-morning yesterday, oops!

[fading]

[if anyone has attempted to contact Nami to wish him a Merry Christmas, they'll have been informed that the number is currently not in service. this might have something to do with the fact that, inside Nami's trashed apartment, his phone is sitting in a puddle of paintwater, sparking. Nami's nowhere to be found!


there's a frantic Kai calling for Nami as he makes his way through the park. he can feel that Nami's still in the dressing room, but there's a wall between their connection so solid he can't sense anything other than that.]



(ooc: Nami got a heart for Christmas. unfortunately, he's had a lot of negativity 'bottled up' so to speak, and the sudden onslaught of proper emotion wasn't taken well. he's in hiding, having taken a portal straight from his apartment! responses will be from Kai, at least at first, despite the fact that the post is from Nami.)

Comments

[seasides]

...somewhere he could be alone. That's all I can think of.

[he's gone to Castle Oblivion, for the record. but he's outside it at least.]

[dawnrise]

[She looks worried, but stops to consider places.]

Twilight Town? I doubt he would have gone back to the mansion, but no one ever goes there.

[seasides]

Could be. Can you think of anywhere else? It'll be easier if we spread out between the 'worlds'.

[dawnrise]

Not unless he went to Castle Oblivion or the islands. I don't think any of the other worlds have any connection to him. He could be anywhere.

[She looks off, then turns back to Kai and holds the end of Serein's leash out to him.]

Here. I'm going to open a portal.

[seasides]

Okay.

[he takes Serein's leash, trying not to look too concerned.]

Be careful.

[dawnrise]

[She nods once, then takes that hand and holds it in front of her, closing her eyes to concentrate. It's been a very, very long time since she's been able to open them, or even tried, and the effort is going to make her darkness flare wildly.]

[seasides]

[he stamps down on his light, which was flickering to the surface in agitation, just in case it's impeding her progress in any way. and he'll definitely be available to help calm her darkness after all this.]

[dawnrise]

[It makes her eyes flicker orange and the tips of her fingers and palm darken to a different skintone, but it's only for a split-second, and then a portal rears to life in front of her and Riku hunches over, a hand to her chest.]

[seasides]

[Kai immediately moves to her side.]

If it's going to be too painful, don't, Riku. We can take the tram and spread out. It might take longer, but I doubt Nami will want to know you forced yourself to do something that hurt you just to find him.

[dawnrise]

Don't. I'm fine. I have to. He's... I just have to.

[She still doesn't know how to describe the new connection she has to him because of their lycanthropy, but it's important.]

[seasides]

...alright. Good luck. Please, be careful.

[he's going to give her a kiss on the head, and back off.]

[dawnrise]

[She nods again and straightens, looking from the portal to him.]

Put Serein wherever you need to and keep looking. I'll call you if I find him.

[seasides]

I'll leave her with Riku.

[considering the fuss that would have happened at home, Axel probably already knows and is out looking.]

[dawnrise]

Thanks. Call me if you find him first.

[And without another word she disappears into the portal.]

[seasides]

[his response dies in his throat and he watches her go, grimacing and turning to take Serein off to his house. hopefully Riku won't mind taking care of her for a bit. Apricot will certainly be entertained.]

[dawnrise]

[Oh, Serein will love Apricot, and probably just love the adventure. Riku... not so much. She opened a portal straight to the streets outside Castle Oblivion, to see if she could sense Nami inside.]

[fading]

[Nami is, thankfully, just outside the castle itself, parked next to the door with his legs pulled up and his face buried in his knees. when she gets close enough, she'll be able to notice a lot of things: his shoulders are shaking, there's the soft sound of sobbing, and he is very much no longer a Nobody.]

[dawnrise]

[She wasn't expecting to find him straight away, and it stuns her momentarily. She lets the portal close behind her and sways from the effort it took, but immediately starts heading toward him. It won't be long before she's stopping in her tracks to stare.]

... Nami?

[fading]

[he makes this little noise in his throat like a wounded animal and curls in on himself tighter. hopefully she's not expecting a response. he's a bit lost in grief at the moment.]

[dawnrise]

[Riku stays where she is for a good half a minute, then she makes to keep walking and close the distance between them. She's almost wary, like he'll take off if she tries to get too close.]

[fading]

[Nami looks up at her after a moment. he looks like he's been crying hard for a while now, his eyes red and puffy, his nose running, the whole works.]

Why does it hurt so much?

[dawnrise]

[Oh, Nami. There's an agonized, sympathetic look on Riku's face when he says that, and she crouches down next to him and moves a hand to his shoulder.]

Because that's part of feeling.

[fading]

[he flinches at the touch and looks away, sinking down a bit.]

I'm not supposed to exist. Why do I exist, Riku? Why am I here?

[dawnrise]

[She doesn't remove her hand, but she doesn't try to get any closer.]

I can't tell you. I couldn't answer that no matter who was asking me, Nami.

[fading]

I don't want this, Riku. Please help me.

[yes, he is desperate enough to ask her to remove his heart.]

It's not like Kai's. It's not, it hurts, I feel like I can't even breathe--!