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[There's a new face among the Dressing Room. On the floor in the room that simulates Never Was, mind you, and unconscious. Which is probably a good thing considering fragments, blue in color, are still collecting, creating her form. Most of herself has been retained by then though. All that's left are her legs and they'll probably recollect before anyone draws near. Her hood is up, but the small frame makes it pretty obvious who it could be for anyone who would know her.]
Seriously? I don't have an embarassed icon for this guy?
If he remembered how it worked, his face was probably turning a shade or two of red because being this close to her was making him feel simultaneously nice and awkward. He couldn't really remember much more about how to react to this sort of feeling, so he went with instinct -which was to move just a little so that he'd shifted her arm over his shoulders. Probably didn't do anything for the coloring on his face though.]
Whoa, easy there. I don't know which one of us was in worse shape, but you shouldn't push yourself.
[He laughed a little, not really sure if he was trying to comfort her or himself more.]
Anyway, I don't know how we ended up here... but I think this is King Mickey's castle.
|D; Need one? Fff....
Things were fine... right? ...Except. His face was awfully red, even as he spoke. So, he was just about as clueless as she was in regards to things... At least except for the location itself, it seemed. King Mickey? Who was he? She wanted to know. She definitely did. But her concern for his well being? That backburnered that thought for just a moment.]
...I see. But, Roxas. Are... Are you okay...? Your... [She trailed off and her free hand came up. Xion waved it over her face yet indicating to his. Obvious worry set in her eyes.]
Why yes, actually.
Roxas, his laugh subsiding, shook his head as he realized his train of thought was turning into an almost comical mess.]
Oh uh... I'm kind of not sure. It was just a feeling I got for that second when I was really close to your face.
[Ending it like that struck him as almost off-putting and something about it, he didn't quite like, so he figured he'd explain a little further.]
I don't know how to describe it... it was kind of nice, but then a little odd. I think it's normal though. When I got to see some of Sora's memories, he got that way a couple of times around Kairi.
[That left him feeling a little better about things. Not to mention it felt like it helped get the color of his face closer to normal, if it hadn't already returned on its own anyway. While the change in scenery was welcome, he figured that they'd want to get an idea on what was going on as soon as they could. Though it didn't worry him enough to upset him just yet, it dawned on him that so far they'd only run across each other. They should've run into someone out here by now.]
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Nice...? Odd...? Around Kairi...? Kairi... The really important person to Sora... and the one she was heavily based off of... Maybe that was why he reacted the way he did...? But... Close to her face... Something seemed to be... Was he seeing a slight bit of a flush to her own? Maybe just a pinch of it. That sense of embarrassment. But about what? She hadn't the slightest idea. She laughed it off weakly herself.]
S-So weird...
[Ahem... He wasn't the only one who knew they should be focusing their attention to other things though. And knowing that he was alright then, well...]
...You said something about King Mickey? Who... Who is he?
[Her hand had long since retracted and she was tilting her head at him curiously now.]
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Yeah.
[He took another moment to study their surroundings before her next question caught his attention.]
Oh, he's a friend of Sora's. I'm not sure how much involved he is or was with everything, but he helped fight against the Organization... I guess that kind of puts us on the same side. Sort of.
[Not that he expected her to think that they were in any way, shape or form still affiliated with their previous association -aside from Xion still wearing that robe anyway, but he wasn't exactly sure where traitors and deserters were classified in that lump. He was pretty confident though that the same concept at least zipped through her thoughts as well.]
But this looks like his world when Sora came through. Maybe he can help us figure out what's going on.
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Those thoughts would have to be put on hold though. Or would be forgotten for the moment anyway. As shock overtook her momentarily. Her eyes shot up to fix on his, pupils shrunk tight from the sunlight catching in them as they widened.]
S-Sora?
[She really shouldn't have been so surprised... right? Because, after all... They both shared some of his memories... but then. Something sounded a little more familiar to his tone than she liked. Like Roxas himself had been there. But... If that... What did...?]
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While figuring out what was going on was important, it didn't seem like there really was anything to worry about where they were. So it really seemed like as good a time as any to at least fill her in on what happened to him since her passing.
There was something inherently relaxing about the sound that fountain made, so he pushed himself up and had a seat on its edge before patting the spot beside him, a wordless invitation for his friend to do the same.]
That's right, huh? I guess it sounds kind of weird hearing that out of me.
[Whether she took a seat or just made herself comfortable some other way, he chose to wait until she did so. He scratched his head a little as he did his best to try and remember -doing his best to keep the details straight and hopefully not confuse the daylights out of the both of them.]
Well, you saw it, didn't you? Back at the Skyscraper -the whole thing that happened between Riku and I. No surprise I guess, but he had a trick up his sleeve I wasn't expecting and well... he beat me.
[He gave a little pause before continuing to explain what he'd been able to figure out; about the digital Twilight Town he'd been put in, the false memories, how that whole world seemed to come crashing down on him when Axel came with intent to recollect him or exterminate him. Trying to be as open with her as he could this time around, Roxas didn't hold any details back about how upsetting those orders were to him -or rather, how upsetting it was that their friend chose to follow those orders over their friendship. Of course there was also the part about the two of them fighting and outcome of that fight. And then came the part about DiZ.
The Nobody made no attempt in the least to even try concealing the venom in his voice when he talked of the man in red. But he described the conversation he had with DiZ before being left to return to their other.]
I couldn't stand him. All I was to him was just a part of Sora that had to return. I know we're not supposed to exist, but we do.... and to me anyway, that gives us the same right to live as our others.
[He takes that moment to break and let Xion ask any questions she might have had, offering a frustrated sigh at that recollection.]
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And after giving him a coy nod. Because it honestly did sound... really strange. Neither of them had known much about Sora, after all. Just flickers of his memories. Even then though, Roxas himself hadn't much of an idea about him. Xion had known only a tiny bit more, honestly. But still not enough as he seemed like he did. It made sense though, she kept having to remind herself. Roxas had been through some things since, hadn't he? So, with that in mind, she just relaxed... and listened.
The first comment didn't surprise her. Xion had witnessed only bits and pieces of it, her conscious having faded in and out at the time. But she knew that riku had stopped him in the end. That... had been the end of her memories then though. So, from there, everything was fresh and new to her. But... the more she heard... the tighter her hands seemed to grip on the leather of her coat. Fooling him like that... into thinking he lived in Twilight Town like that. And rewriting his memories. Tampering with his memories. That alone ate away at her. Memories. Memories were something that were so precious to them. It was something that she knew both Roxas and Axel... They had always valued. It made them who they were. For Roxas... It made him not just "Sora's nobody".
And listening to him describe how he fought with Axel on top of that. It... Was this really what she left him to? Was this what Namine had intended on when she said that she would watch over him? It... It was really killing her inside to know that all of this had happened in her absence. All this... He didn't deserve. And what made it worse was that this spiral of indifference didn't stop. Even with Namine's weak means of trying to make his transfer from the living lie to accepting himself as part of Sora. Everything was wrong. It was... so unacceptably wrong.
...But the conversation with DiZ. That was the last nail in the metaphorical coffin. She stood up suddenly, wobbling as she did. Fists clutched and eyes narrowed into a heavy set glare for just a moment's notice as she tried so hard not to just... snap out right there. So many words and thoughts and... All of it was coming at her and she couldn't decide on what to do for a moment. Until, finally, her appalled thoughts took the most root and she turned back to face him. Her features anxious. Her words cutting through with apprehension and pain.]
That's not right! How could that-- She promised that she-- They had no right to do that to you!
[She sounded almost hysterical towards the end. Her voice cracked and shriveled and then she was leaning over and embracing him where he sat because she was all sorts of apologetic and angry and... and... How could this have happened? How could she have let it happen? Roxas, he... He hadn't deserved this!]
See what you've got me doing now?
Wait, feeling from someone else? That would have to be another one for him to get some answers about later.
But the way she was reacting, he'd almost swear that she'd expected some kind of different outcome. Well, that one could also go into the pile of things to talk about. Now that he thought about it, he knew dismally little about just what she'd been uncovering during their times apart -he doubted it all really was just missions and practice. But now he was getting side-tracked and had a whole different matter to contend to.
He knew this feeling though; anger and sadness at the same time. To him it was a sick irony at the moment that she'd feel something at least very close to what he felt on that fateful afternoon in Twilight Town. So as she embraced him, he took her in his arms and did his best to comfort her.
And then part of that registered to him.
"She promised that she-"
Wait, who?
Maybe it was time for some answers after all.]
It's alright, calm down... but who are you talking about?
She? There weren't any girls working with DiZ, just-
[His eyes went wide for a moment as realization settled in.]
How did I miss it?
Was I -?
[The possibilities that this opened up in his big book of "What if" questions easily made a few chapters on their own.]
Did Namine talk to you too?
Ffff.... It's Roxas. He does these things
No more secrets. No more hiding things... right? It... It wasn't fair to him. His existence had been mocked enough, hadn't it? She might not have known exactly what it was sometimes, but something told her... And she wouldn't have it. She wouldn't be like that to him. She closed her eyes a moment and breathed a shuddered breath.]
She was the one... I met her... before I intended to return to Sora... She... She agreed to... watch over you... but I never thought it would have turned out like that... If I'd known that...
Stupid subject field...
Granted, to him at least, it still didn't justify anything. It just made her angle a little more understandable.
However Namine's definition of "watching over him" ended up being little more than throwing him a few cryptic clues.
"You won't disappear! You'll be whole!"
Part of him inwardly scoffed at that. If anything, he felt alienated existing within Sora; a character out of place in a storybook of wondrous memories. He had to wonder for a little, just who was to blame for that. Had it been Namine just paying lip-service to get Sora back? Did she plan to do more, but Riku or DiZ stopped her? It seemed for every question he had answered, at least two new ones appeared in its place.
In either case, that was all done. Nothing could change what happened and right now, one of his best friends needed him to do something before she came apart again.
You're always worrying about me... thanks Xion.
He could practically hear those words being spoken, but for some reason, something inside him said that this wasn't the time to say a thing like that. So for now, he shuffled it into memory, giving her a firm squeeze before offering a smile in return. It seemed more a 'kicked puppy' smile, but he was at least trying to cheer her up.]
It's okay. We can't do anything about what happened back then.
At least we're both here now, right?
Buh? XD;
Xion finally looked up at him. And, well, it might not have felt too awkward to her because she was still wrapping concepts like this around her head, he might be feeling a might bit of it. Because she was pretty darn close to him again. But she was smiling that small, quiet smile of hers. Even if it was a little guilty in appearance. A little sad. A little forced. Kind of complimented his, really. But those jaded smiles seemed to be more than prevalent for a good reason with all that they had been through. Her gaze buckled again as she spoke, but her smile remained.]
...That's true, I guess. And... This time... I'll be sure that you don't... have to face something like that again.
...So then. Can you remember anything after that? [He didn't just vanish like her, right? After all, he was a nobody. Not a replica.]
Just the way it holds the old subject over if you don't actually put something there.
A thought occurred to him as he looked at that smile of hers. Especially if this was some new chance at a life specifically of their own, he'd want to make it a point to bring back that particular smile he'd seen on her. The smile shared when they had ice cream with Axel and just talked about anything -no matter how dumb or trivial. But that would be something to work toward as things went on.
Roxas seemed to be getting better at juggling his thoughts while keeping track of reality as the conversation didn't seem to just snap him out of a daydream like it normally seemed to. He nodded in reply to that first statement, at least for now with holding that he'd do the same for her. For some reason, it just seemed like it'd be a disregard of her feelings if he said that immediately.]
Yeah... well, sort of. That thing I saw in that room opened up and Sora was in it.
[It wasn't venom in his voice -it was far too subdued, longing or envy perhaps as he recalled the memory. He laughed at himself a little.]
And then the lame last thing I said before I just "faded" into him was "I guess my summer vacation is over.".
[It was strange recalling that. At that point, he knew what had to be done, what he needed to do and at least for the most part, why. At the time, he felt such sadness and despair -maybe that's why he didn't just 'become whole' like Namine had told him. He didn't care about power or any thing like that, he wanted a life of his own.
After that brief reminiscence, he shook his head a little, feeling a note more down than he did before.]
After that, it was kind of like watching through his eyes. I got to see what he was doing, how his friends always recognized him and were happy to see him.
[That last sentence came out with his almost trademarked mix of envy and sadness, whether he meant it to or not. Honestly, if Xion really had just faded away after that duel, it was an almost enviable fate. Because continuing to partially exist in a world where few, if any even acknowledge one's existence was a pretty sad state too.]
Ah~~ I see
Focusing on what he said. That took priority over anything else. Unfortunately, it seemed... all the rest he had to tell was with a lingering sadness. So, he had returned to Sora in the end... Xion almost... She curled her hand into a slight grip on the back of his shirt, frustrated. She knew they had to go back... That was where they had belonged, after all. But it didn't stop his melancholy from eating away at her. The comment about his last words. It... It wasn't so amusing to her, but then she realized he honestly didn't find it so either. Just a breath of tension relief. Otherwise, well... Well, how else could one handle talking about fading like that? Disconnected and miserable like her, she supposed. In that regard... Roxas seemed to be the stronger of the two. Even the bitterness she expected... It wasn't really there like she anticipated. Even if the sadness was more than prevalent. At his pause, she gave him an awkward squeeze. Mimicking the one he had given her not long ago.
She felt almost a little astounded when he noted how he could see through his other's eyes... But then she shouldn't, should she? Again, roxas had always been a nobody while she was a replica. So, their connection to Sora was different. It would only make sense then that he would retain some sort of consciousness. A cruel one though at that. Watching through someone else's eyes... without being able to do anything. It wasn't exactly a fate she would want herself. She could only imagine how he must have felt. She rest her head on his shoulder a moment and sighed... trying to concentrate on what to say.
Apologizes wouldn't change what happened. And they couldn't do anything about it now. He had just said that moments before. So then... What could she do in the now? She was already there for him, but... it just didn't feel sufficient. She wanted to do more than that. But... she found she really wasn't sure if she could. But then did a thought linger and slowly surface. What had Sora...
But she kept it to herself at the moment. Shuttering away any curiosity of that nature. Because right then, she wanted to concentrate on Roxas. And right then, she would. She did have one question to ask though.]
...So... ...When did you end up here? ...How long has it been since you left the Organization? [Since she disappeared, to be more precise, but she knew that was still a raw wound and she was going to do her best to avoid it at the moment. For both their sakes.]
Re: Ah~~ I see
When her question came up, he paused a little, mulling that one over for a little. Honestly, with the world-traveling business, it was pretty hard to keep track of days once he'd merged with Sora. Still, he figured he'd do the best he could to answer.]
Uhm... well, I know I was in that digital Twilight Town for about seven days. After I merged with Sora, it all kind of blurred together with him and his friends traveling. It was at least four days, I want to say -but it might have been as long as two weeks.
[He paused a moment after that, scratching the back of his neck as if not entirely sure about the numbers he was giving -clearly it was as accurate as he could remember, but clearly he's not entirely sure about how precise he is. And on top of that, the look on his face seems like there's a little more that he wanted to note about things, but he's not quite sure how to bring it up.]
I woke up wherever we did about two days after everything happened.
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Him not remembering the days... kind of bothered her. If she knew anything about Roxas, he had always, always counted the days. It was a quirk that she had picked up from him, actually. The seashells were a testament to that. Quietly, she wondered if that made him feel lost. Did it bother him that he no longer knew? It did bug Xion, herself. But... Then a lot of this bothered her because it was something they were talking about him going through rather than something they saw through together.
She ducked away as he paused, looking at him curiously. Catching that expression and biting her lip just a bit. The question was written on her face far sooner than did she voice it.]
After what happened?
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Roxas honestly felt at least some relief when Xion posed the question that she did. There was more to the story than just what he'd covered up to his merge and part of him was still wondering if what he tried to do to Sora back at Memory's Skyscraper was even right to begin with... even if the end result gave him the closure needed to just 'let go' of most of his resentment. To his shock, that release apparently gave his other their Final Form, as the boy had called it.
Some part of him would openly, if not somewhat loathingly admit that it was a pretty cool way for the combined power from Xion and him to be used.]
After he did everything he was supposed to.
[He started his explanation with a sigh. It wasn't from the annoyance of talking about it, it was more his ongoing annoyance that everything went according to DiZ's plan for the most part.]
After Sora woke up, he did just what they expected him to do. With a little prodding from King Mickey, he went right after the Organization.
[Though he tried not to drag on with things, he retold the story of their other's struggle against their former compatriots and how the remaining members of the Organization were cut down one at a time. He talked of his shock to find that Axel had survived their duel and how he tried to have Sora consumed by a mob of heartless to bring him back -only to change his mind at the last moment and sacrifice himself so Sora would live.
He let it go quiet for a moment there, as if offering some silence out of respect for their mutual friend. When he picked up again, his tone was a note sadder, as if retelling that opened a wound that hadn't quite started to heal. He told of Sora's arrival in the World That Never Was and how through a means even he couldn't understand, he managed to manifest physically in top form and summon a pair of Samurai Nobodies to hold Donald and Goofy at bay while he snatched Sora off to a duel.]
I still don't know how I did it... but after I lost, I wasn't mad at him.
I don't know why, but I think I was relieved.
/FINALLY It was a lot to think over, so I kind of gave this space, but I think I got it now
Even with how the Organization had been constructed... to create Kingdom Hearts using the hearts of innocents. She... Honestly, not all of those in the Organization... She didn't begrudge all of them. Some of them... had really never done any wrong to her. So... listening to how the Organization was completely wiped out... It bothered her a little. Having her power used for that purpose... It was Kingdom Hearts that had to be stopped. But then... It wasn't like Organization XIII would just allow someone to up and destroy it. Certainly not without a fight. She knew of its importance, remembered how some of the members had spoken desperately of retrieving a heart.
As the story progressed and Roxas reached the part about Axel's choice... Xion stared at him in shock, her gaze softening weakly shortly afterward. That... That was really the choice he had made? To disappear, too? It wasn't lost to her the reasons why-- but... That only made her feel more empty. And while Roxas was quiet, Xion had blinked rapidly while her breaths came out shallow and shuddered. She didn't reach for Roxas' comfort then... because it felt undeserved. She felt like... she should have found a way to prevent it-- which was silly, honestly. It wasn't like she knew that something like that would have happened. But.. Xion being Xion, well...
Her focus only barely managed to snap back to his story as he recounted his fight with Sora... and how he had lost, but yet... For some reason, he had found a resolve to it. It seemed strange to her, but then... She was just hearing a story. She didn't really know the half of it... and she never really would know more than that. Simply because she never lived it. But-- at the same time... Maybe. Just maybe...]
...It almost sounds like. He could have understood you. Who you were... Of course, everyone could say that it's because you're his nobody, but... It sounds like it goes beyond that.
...He really worried about his friends. Like you always... so... maybe that's why...
Yay! New post because I'm back!
Now part of him had been wondering what would have happened if he'd won. Doubtful that Donald, Goofy, Mickey, Ansem, Kairi and Riku would have stood with him -it would have been him versus the remaining members of the Organization. That of course, also assumed that Sora's friends didn't just decide to eliminate him. And looking at how things turned out, that victory however long or not long ago, required those bonds of friendship that their other had.
Thankfully, it was a matter he didn't dwell upon too long before Xion offered her little bit of insight to some of the questions that still lingered within him from that time. When he heard her voice, his attention snapped to her, giving a contemplative look as she offered her opinion of the matter.]
Huh... I guess that sounds about right. As much as I try to tell everyone that I'm me; that I'm different from him. We at least have that much in common.
[He gave a momentary pause, their conversation providing a new question for him to mull over, one that he chose to openly share.]
If I saw some of his memories... I wonder if he saw any of yours or mine.
I'm pretty impressed how much this has lived. XD;
At his last comment though... Xion sat in silence, considering it with careful, flowing thoughts. It was possible... maybe. Maybe not as intensely as they had witnessed his memories, but... Then again...]
...It's hard for me to say. I don't remember anything after I...
[She trailed off and gestured lightly with her hand as if that would finish her thought. Then letting silence veil them a little longer. If Sora had, she wondered if that would have changed anything. And if it had, would it have been for better or worse? There always seemed to be complications. Always. Trial after trial. Nothing ever was simple. She found herself tugging away at her hood, just thinking about everything.
All the trials and tribulations. Just hearing about them wore on her and she hadn't even been there to see it. At least not consciously. She was part of Sora then, of course. But... while Roxas apparently could keep his sense of self composed, hers had shattered the moment she had returned. Perhaps it was partly due to the resolve that she had carried at the time. She had steeled herself, accepted it. While Roxas had fought it. Did part of him feel betrayed for her just shutting down like that now that he knew they had co-existed in Sora together for a time? She looked at him out of the corner of her eye, still not entirely believing this to be real. Her hand came to touch his arm as her mouth formed a thin, unreadable line. Although her conflict was more than apparent in her eyes as always.
All the memories she had of Sora back then... All the trouble they had caused, really.]
...Knowing how we were with having his memories though, it might be better if he never did.
Well it is a pretty awesome thread
Well, there were some thoughts he'd be voicing to her about that later. For the immediate moment, he'd been listening as she offered her thoughts on his question. Though as much as he did wonder about that, he was fairly sure that Sora hadn't seen the faintest glimpse of what either of his Nobodies had been through. If he had, there was a particular comment the boy had once said that he probably wouldn't have if he'd been aware.]
He probably didn't... thinking about it. That honestly makes me feel at least a little glad.
[He paused a moment, a weak grin forming on his face as he watched for the likely quizzical or at least curious look she was expected to reply with. Of course, as soon as he saw any hint of that, he'd elaborate a little more.]
I mean think about it; it means that those memories belong to each of us. It just means we've got the same right to live he does.
[The more analytical part of his mind was also pointing out that Xion having memories that neither he, nor Sora had further reinforced that despite what she'd started out as, she was every bit as much of a person or at least a Nobody as any other. At least from his stand point because she had genuine, unique memories that only she possessed. But then, maybe he was thinking on that one too hard.]
It's rockin' so hard~ And I almost killed it XD;
'Belong to each of us'... A right to... 'A right to live'...
She stared at Roxas a long moment, unsure of what to say. Her thoughts were swirling out of control. Like those words had freed all these sudden possibilities and they were just spiraling out and around and throughout until she suddenly shut her eyes tight, concentrating. Slowing the flow to a crawl. Trying to remember the other side of the coin. But... But even so, she had to ask. Had to wish for that reassurance.]
Do... Do you really think so...?
[Sounding so unsure. So... lost and suddenly... Suddenly afraid. Almost like what they were doing was wrong. Forbidden. To want that freedom, that right. What about Sora? What was happening to him now that they were where they were? Was he asleep again? Or was this where those who weren't supposed to exist in the first place... Was this where they faded off to?
The uncertainty etched in her face, made her grip his arm a little tighter. This was real. She could feel it. His hand. His arm. Her shaking. It was... too real for words, even. Almost. She was almost expecting herself to wake up-- but part of her knew she wasn't going to. That Roxas was there. That she was there. And that, deep down.... she wouldn't have it any other way.]
As long as there's interest, I'll keep tagging
Unique things like a person's memories, experiences and the memories they leave preserved with others define an individual's right to live. To possess even a single unique memory gave them reason enough to exist, regardless of who said they should be allowed to or not. And it was the feelings produced by that belief that he figured resulted in him persisting after Sora absorbed him.
And so he watched her, listening for anything she might say and trying to get some idea of what thoughts must be running through her head. Then she finally spoke up.]
Of course! Maybe we weren't supposed to exist in the first place. But I don't think anyone can deny that we do. And I think even if we had no purpose or anything like that, there's a lot of reasons why we shouldn't just have to fade away.
[Loathe as he might be to admit it, he probably sounded a lot like Sora with a statement like that. But really, he didn't care. His attention had been on Xion as he'd talked, feeling her reactions; the shaking and then that look of worry in her eyes.
It was strange that not too long ago, he would have been fine existing again without any memory that she'd ever been a part of his life. And yet now, knowing what they'd been through, he felt a bond with her that he honestly wanted to say was stronger than his to their Other. That felt strange to consider -Axel was his best friend and while that was the case, something inside him said that his connection to his friend was a different kind of attachment. Admittedly, these feelings were really confusing things -even if he thought they were memories.]
But yeah... that's why I think it's okay for us both to be around again. It's why I think we should be able to find a way to have hearts of our own and then live -kind of normal lives, I guess.
[He laughs a little.]
That must sound a little silly, huh? I got so wrapped up in us just being here like this, I kind of didn't think things much further along. But what I'm getting at is that we're here together, so it'll be alright. I'm sure of it.
I'm usually the same way 8D; Unless my muse dies
He carried the appeal of it further with his words, only shaking it at the mention of the lacking purpose. They had one though, didn't they? They... They wouldn't be there otherwise, would they? To her, still existing meant that she had left something undone. Or maybe she just simply needed that comfort. That reason. A sense of security. But... part of her whispered deep down-- didn't she already have that? Wasn't he--
A heart...
Normal lives...
'...it'll be alright. I'm sure of it.'
The Sora vibe of his statements. That didn't even register to her-- because it was Roxas she was facing then. It was always Roxas. Xion would always see him first before Sora. Not like the others who saw it the other way around. But what did hit her was... that no matter how simple it sounded, there was one thing still clawing at the back of her mind. One thing she knew they had to touch base on-- something that had until then been avoided mainly due to the sudden heartless attack and then further deterred by his explanation of events since her fading. But now-- she knew she had to say something.]
...Even given this chance though. Roxas... If I still am what I am, I might... I might do that again. I don't have any control over it. I shouldn't even... [She let go of his arm in emphasis, too afraid for him to allow her reluctance to get the best of her. Fearful that she was affecting him by that touch alone. Sapping his strength as she had before.]
What if... we run out of time?
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In either case, that was something he wasn't prepared to answer. He wanted to brush it off -to say that since they were standing there and that he had memories of Sora setting Kingdom Hearts free and defeating Xemnas meant that there was no reason to think that this was anything but a second chance for them. But there was no telling how Sora was here or if anything else had been going on.
For a moment though, he saw some part of her hoping and wanting to share the dream he was chasing. And he wasn't about to just let that part sink back into despair without a fight.]
For starters, we're not sure of anything right now.
[He hesitated a moment and instincts took over where thinking failed him. Roxas felt his hand react of its own volition, immediately reaching out and taking hers again -as if in some hope that such an act would steady the situation. And somewhere in that split second, he felt something -not a memory of an emotion, but something stronger. It resonated with him and before he knew it, his mouth was running with his thoughts before he could even decide how things should be said.]
We'll worry about it then. If it happens again, then we'll just find another way... but we're not even sure if it will happen again. We're not even sure how we're here.
So until we get some answers, we'll just play it by ear.
Besides... none of us were really straight with each other back then.
[He offers a smile.]
This time, I'm not hiding anything and that's a start to making things different this time around.
/r-retypes finally sofushdfud
/fixes because he's a perfectionist... sorta
XDD It happens. L-LOL
And at least 1 new icon is go!
F-ffff.... It's so hard to pick and choose them
Yeah, picking out which ones to phase out and in... this 'll take awhile
/makes a bunch of alternate accounts. FFFF Just kidding.
Not a bad idea, but juggling accounts is a pain
|D I was just kidding-- although I have a program that lets me switch accounts faster
I probably should get one of those for myself anyway
F-Ffff... I should link you to it. I need to get off my lazy ass about it. That's all.
Speaking of lazy, I sure took my sweet time on this one
That's okay. Apparently, so did I. |D
Heh and it's not like we're timed on this one.
Well, nothing's ever timed, really. Games are just insane.
Very true. Also, short tag is slightly short.
F-Ffff. Not all tags have to be gigantic to get their point across, so. |D;
Yeah. I just get my jollies tl;dr'ing you.
Ah-ha~ "Jollies". |D
Exactly. Also, remember to send the source on that icon next time we chat.
Already taken care of~ Oh gods. The icons. @@; /brain breaks
That reminds me that I need to cycle this boy's icons within the next couple days
DO IT. /needs to finish keywording hers @@;
On the agenda for the next couple days.
This is what I get for canon reviewing~
Ara?
Ah, he holds her hand when they face Saix after Xion wakes up. /durp
Oh yeah, I remember now.
I just remembered 'cause of all that unfun canon review for Dissideo. 8D
Yeah, you really don't skimp the details when you do your research
I suppose. XD I wrote down notes, after all.
Yeah, you're certainly thorough.
Details will probably go fuzzy soon enough though. Memory like a sieve. L-LOL
Heh, mine's not too much better... ah well.
Maybe it's a defensive thing so your brain won't fucking implode. |D
Don't you mean explode? I'd figure it'd implode if you got too stupid or something.
Implode just sounds like a refreshing way of phrasing things. AKA I'm weird.
No weirder than me. But I suppose that's kinda insulting.
HAT. That's all I gotta say.
ASIDE from the hat.
Dude, you know you're not going to live that down. |D
Yeah, true. That's why I tried to be cool in it and throw up the horns.
I think the keyword there is "tried". ;D
It sorta worked. It looked better than the other pictures.
Dude, I'm sorry but you were doomed the moment you put it on. |D
This is true. If nothing, it's funny.
It was. Don't get me wrong. F-Ffff.
And yet, I shall never live it down.
Yeah, more or less. O-Oh gods. It took me a while to decide on how to handle this.
So far, it's making for an appropriately dramatic story.
1/2 That just got totally overboard in dramatics right now.
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So we'll balance it out with some durp later
Sounds good to me~!
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Suddenly, my tags are going super short. FFF I blame new muse syndrome.
Don't worry about it. And now I randomly tag before work.
And now to finally tag back~. o7
Now it's my turn to "finally" tag back
/o/ And I finally get back to you in turn.
And now my muse starts venting
And now Riku :|'s and has a hissy fit. Finally.
Don't worry so much about it
Short tag is short. @@;
Sometimes we just hit that block, ya know?
Yeah, and it sucks balls. :|
It's alright though
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Happy New Years Post!
/o/ HAPPY FUCKING NEW YEARS.
May this year be less sucky than the last!
We shall see~
That we shall, but I'll figure out how to manage making things better yet.
Oh, will you now~?
You know me, ever the optimist.
You mean ever so troublesome~ /balances out with skepticism
Troublesome? Or AWESOME? /balances with a hint of insanity
Troublesome. Definitely. Troublesome.
Yeah, but you've gotta admit that you probably wouldn't like me as much if I were different.
Dunno. A parallel self of yourself might have been a lot cooler. FFFF~
Oh you... ffff~
1/ You saw that coming. You know it~
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Oh very much so.
So, is it really all that surprising~?
Which part?
I dunno. But then my brain turned off from this conversation a moment back.
No worries. But I'm gonna guess there's an extra twist here.
Of course~ Would just be a rehash otherwise.
Seems I'm being called into work today, hopefully see you later tonight.
/o/ And seems you're off now.
Yup. Paycheck today was nice though.
I suppose it would be.
And tomorrow, I see how much of it I get to play with.
1/2 F-Ffff. True?
2/3 And I lied.
3/3 And another account. F-Fffff.
If this wasn't so entertaining, I'd start haggling you for borderline playercest.
Hey. HEY. It's the DR. It's legal. |D BE NICE.
I said if it wasn't so entertaining. So take that compliment and run with it.
Yeah, yeah. Whatever. ;D
What? I can back-handedly compliment you.
Like a jerkface. 8| F-Ffff..
Cause it wouldn't be fun if I were completely nice.
Yeah, but it'd save me a lot of trouble. ;D
Cause I'm such a nice guy, I'll just be straight-up nice next time things call for it.
Someone's certainly full of crap today. ;D
Tell you what. I'll be nice the day you decide to do the same.
Tch. I was nice or don't you remember?
I remember. I'm just saying that I'll be nice again when you are.
1/2 Sure, sure~
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Ah, how I love the edit button
Of course. It's the edit button. So glorious~
Yeah. I'm so used to having it only on the sponsored account.
Ah... Yeah. I'm still getting used to the edit button myself since I only have it on this account.
What's sucky for me is that I'm probably gonna end up buying a year sub for this guy now.
Oh? How come?
Just cause I'll be too weirded out once I lose that edit button.
I guess that's true.
Plus I mean, the extra icons are pretty nice.
Hells yeah, they are. @@;; Xion's a muse that it's really nice to have them.
I'd bet.
8D;;; Vergeofgoddingvergeofgoddingwhat.
Heh, it's hard to resist adding some headcanon in to level the playing field.
8} And it's just the beginning, Roxas. Oh-ho~
You should've seen him cringe when he read that
Oh-hoho~ Snap. Man, he just keeps trying. Although he can't be blamed.
Yeah. He's still gonna fight this to the end. You know how Roxae(?) are about joker fights.
True that, I suppose.
It's just not in his nature to throw in the towel when he has reason to keep pushing
He can be pretty damned stubborn, I'll give you that.
But it's one of the reasons that make him a great muse to have.
In some ways, yes.
One of the reasons I'm fond of him anyway.
MAKES IT HARD TO GET PAST A PLOT THOUGH. DFOUDSFH F-FFFF.
Maybe you should structure your plots a little more openly. Just suggesting.
Perhaps. But usually when I can actually think of a plot for once, I feel compelled to follow it.
Talking tiemz
And confusion times apparently.
Time to see how this resolves itself.
Pretty much.
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Ah good, I can make my own entrance.
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See you after I get back from work.
/o/ You got off work pretty early, man.
It was only a 12 - 6:30 shift today.
Ah... Okay, makes sense. I thought you were gonna get off pretty late.
Well, nothin' to worry about in any case, right?
True that. Except now I have to go or I'll never get up for work. =\
It's cool. I'm expecting company today, so tagging may be sporadic.
It's all good. I ended up with a bit of tag burnout earlier today. @@;
Seems all the better then that I didn't actually get a chance to sit down until now.
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Fff.... And that was hella long. /quits editting finally
Yeah... who'da thought a random DR thread would go this long?
We're just insane as fuck. 'Nuff said.
Insane? Or awesome? Yeah, that's right, I said you're awesome too.
Or have way too much time on our hands.
Could be the latter, but at the same time, we get our responsible shit done too.
True enough.
So then there just doesn't seem like much of a problem.
Heh... So perhaps there isn't, really.
Ya never know.
Ffff... Someone's talking in circles now. |D
It seemed slightly more amusing to say in my head. Anyway, last tag before work.
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