Sometimes I cant be put back together

[venitas.livejournal.com]

[Oh hey. It looks like Ven's finally come out of hiding. He'd have stayed hidden longer, but he really needs food. His stomach is getting rather painful by now.
Looks like he hasn't been sleeping either, by the looks of the dark circles under his eyes. Said eyes also look a little red and puffy, as if he's been crying recently. He even seems a little thinner. He definitely hasn't been taking care of himself.]

[ooc: Usual SPOILER WARNINGS apply.]

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[artificiality]

[Wipes her cheeks with her gloves. Wait, her face is normal again? Oh good. It dies down to just sniffs.]

[venitas.livejournal.com]

[Glances at her to see if she seems to be feeling any better.]

[artificiality]

[She is, just resting against him quietly.]

[venitas.livejournal.com]

[...He really should not be so comfortable with this. He should be on his guard to make sure Vanitas cant take over. He should be distancing himself from her in case he does take over again.

Not feeling more content than he has in ages. ]

[artificiality]

[So don't go :c]

[venitas.livejournal.com]

[As if he could. There's no way he could leave her now.]

[artificiality]

[Slowly lets go.]

[venitas.livejournal.com]

[Lets her.]

...You okay now?

[artificiality]

Mm.

[venitas.livejournal.com]

[...Nods.

He's still worried though.]

[artificiality]

[Just don't leave her again and she'll be fine. She looks calmer now, though she still looks a bit shaken.]

[venitas.livejournal.com]

[She's practically got him on an imaginary leash now. He wont leave her unless she tells him to.]

[artificiality]

I'm sorry I couldn't help.

[venitas.livejournal.com]

It's not your fault.

[artificiality]

But I could have stopped it if it weren't--

[If she just put that cloak on and stayed like that. She shouldn't have tried to have fun, look what happened.]

[venitas.livejournal.com]

He's my problem. You shouldn't have to deal with it. I should have kept him under control.

It's not your fault.

[artificiality]

.. you're my friend, so it's my problem too.

[venitas.livejournal.com]

...But he's not your responsibility.

[artificiality]

Yes, he is.

[He made it personal the moment he stole her first kiss :| She can stand Xigbar feeding her his paopu fruit, but that was just low.]

[venitas.livejournal.com]

[At least he didn't do anything more than that.

He just frowns sadly.]

He shouldn't be your responsibility though.

[artificiality]

I can't stand what he did to me!

[;;]

[venitas.livejournal.com]

[He flinches as if she'd slapped him across the face.]

[artificiality]

[Well, it's true. Her lip still has that small cut in it where his teeth dug into it.

Sure, she probably wouldn't mind if he kissed her, but only if it was Ven really doing it and he's not possessed by Vanitas.]

[venitas.livejournal.com]

[...Just, stares at the ground. So much guilt.

Well if he knew that...He'd still feel guilty and think he doesn't deserve to kiss her. :<]

[artificiality]

I... I didn't want my first kiss to feel like that.