Sometimes I cant be put back together

[venitas.livejournal.com]

[Oh hey. It looks like Ven's finally come out of hiding. He'd have stayed hidden longer, but he really needs food. His stomach is getting rather painful by now.
Looks like he hasn't been sleeping either, by the looks of the dark circles under his eyes. Said eyes also look a little red and puffy, as if he's been crying recently. He even seems a little thinner. He definitely hasn't been taking care of himself.]

[ooc: Usual SPOILER WARNINGS apply.]

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[venitas.livejournal.com]

He's my problem. You shouldn't have to deal with it. I should have kept him under control.

It's not your fault.

[artificiality]

.. you're my friend, so it's my problem too.

[venitas.livejournal.com]

...But he's not your responsibility.

[artificiality]

Yes, he is.

[He made it personal the moment he stole her first kiss :| She can stand Xigbar feeding her his paopu fruit, but that was just low.]

[venitas.livejournal.com]

[At least he didn't do anything more than that.

He just frowns sadly.]

He shouldn't be your responsibility though.

[artificiality]

I can't stand what he did to me!

[;;]

[venitas.livejournal.com]

[He flinches as if she'd slapped him across the face.]

[artificiality]

[Well, it's true. Her lip still has that small cut in it where his teeth dug into it.

Sure, she probably wouldn't mind if he kissed her, but only if it was Ven really doing it and he's not possessed by Vanitas.]

[venitas.livejournal.com]

[...Just, stares at the ground. So much guilt.

Well if he knew that...He'd still feel guilty and think he doesn't deserve to kiss her. :<]

[artificiality]

I... I didn't want my first kiss to feel like that.

[venitas.livejournal.com]

[Another stab of guilt.]

I'm sorry.

[His voice might have broken a little bit there.]

[artificiality]

[What why breaking D:

Looks up at him at that.]

[venitas.livejournal.com]

[Because so, so upset about this. It's all his fault.

His head is bowed and he's got his eyes shut tight in case he starts crying again. He doesn't want her to see that.]

[artificiality]

[D:]

Ven... ?

[venitas.livejournal.com]

[If he hadn't promised not to leave he'd probably be running away now.]

'm sorry...

[You know what? He actually hates himself right now. He should be destroyed if all he does is cause his friends pain.]

[artificiality]

[She pulls him back for a hug again, letting out a deep breath.]

It's fine. It... was just one kiss, I'd... probably get over it.

[venitas.livejournal.com]

[Shakes his head slowly.]

...I should have done something. I should have stopped him. I...I'm sorry.

[He is dirt. Lower than dirt. He is nothing. Terra should have let Eraqus destroy him. So much could have been avoided if he had.]

[artificiality]

Ven, please. Stop blaming yourself.

[venitas.livejournal.com]

But it's my fault.

[artificiality]

Please? I don't like seeing you like this too. As much as painful as it might seem, it's still not your fault. You couldn't have done anything to stop it.

[venitas.livejournal.com]

[...........Hugs her closer, hiding his face in her shoulder.]

What can I do to make up for it? Anything at all.

[artificiality]

[Pets his hair.]

... stop blaming yourself. And smile again, please?


... that's the Ven I like.

[venitas.livejournal.com]

[He's quiet for a long while, not moving away. But he's just trying to get himself into a state of mind where he can do what she asked.]

...That's not nearly enough to make up for it though.

[But he sighs, and when he finally looks up again he's smiling. It's a weak smile, but still.]

[artificiality]

[And he's getting a light kiss on teh cheek for that. It also makes her feel better.]

[venitas.livejournal.com]

[Blink blink.

He doesn't blush like he normally would, but he looks surprised.]