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[rawksass.livejournal.com]

[Distraught, depressed, angry with himself, angry with a certain Riku... and just defeated. Utterly.

Sitting on the floor, back against the wall and he's slumped.

Taps his knee, no real rhythm. Eyes poofy, red and agitated from his earlier crying.]

...

[arms now crossing over his chest]

I think I need to talk to Axel.

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[jailedbait.livejournal.com]

I saw you talking with the god.

[rawksass.livejournal.com]

Yeah. That was a thrilling conversation.

[jailedbait.livejournal.com]

I can relate. He thinks because my Sora's such a cute and kind boy that he can lay kisses all over him like he's something that should be worshipped.

[sneer. and he's still bitter from the goddamn vampire getting to Sora last night, too.]

No one even bothers to meet anyone anymore. No dates, no talking, they just flirt and fuck as they go.

It's not fucking fair to the people who actually have and want to protect their relationships.

[rawksass.livejournal.com]

[picks at his shirt, nodding]

So... it wasn't wrong that I went off like that, huh? I was just so angry- and to be frank, I still am.

I've known Axel forever. I'd watch as he flirted with other people... yanno, I'm sure he's been with people too. That I can handle.

[wrinkles]

But how am I supposed to compare to a God? And that 'God' told me that Axel didn't want to anyway!

[rubs head]

What the hell am I supposed to do now?

[mistagentaya.livejournal.com]

...Problems kid?

[rawksass.livejournal.com]

You can say that.

[mistagentaya.livejournal.com]

Suppose a lot of people here have those...

[rawksass.livejournal.com]

Seems so. But that's life.

[wave of a hand]

Well, life here.

[mistagentaya.livejournal.com]

Sounds like you've been here a while.
Everything just made to disappoint?

[rawksass.livejournal.com]

Not as long as others. Long enough.

But thanks to being here... I'm pretty sure something that could have been wonderful has been ruined.

[mistagentaya.livejournal.com]

...Did you get raped or something? Cause the way you're telling it is the way it sounds.

[mmmtightpants.livejournal.com]

--Shit, Rox, what's wrong?

[blinks]

[rawksass.livejournal.com]

Had a chat with someone. It was enlightening.

[can't even look at him]

[mmmtightpants.livejournal.com]

[kneeling down]

Hey, hey c'mon, look at me.

[strokes Roxas' cheek.]

[rawksass.livejournal.com]

[hesitates, but finally looks up at him, frowning]

I won't ever be good enough, will I.

[not really a question- more of a statement. A sad little statement]

[mmmtightpants.livejournal.com]

...Roxas!

[kfjl;k scooches cloesr and cups his cheeks]

What the hell? What happened?

[rawksass.livejournal.com]

[fidgets, not feeling so brave anymore]

I met that God of yours. ...He told me what happened.

[focuses on his hands, which were in his lap now]

But it doesn't matter, does it. No one can compare to a God. Nothing will ever feel as good, or will come close to as good. And it's a hard thing to accept.

[everlyafter.livejournal.com]

You gonna be okay?

[kneels down by him, looking a little worried]

[rawksass.livejournal.com]

[nods absently]

Yeah...

[everlyafter.livejournal.com]

[she sits by him anyway]

Anyone you want me to beat up?

[rawksass.livejournal.com]

[was that a small smile? Yes it was!]

Oh believe me, if I thought it possible I'd beat him up. But I know better than to punch a god in the face.

[everlyafter.livejournal.com]

Hmm, true. But it's still not cool to hurt people like that.

Besides, it's my job to protect all you poor, defenseless guys around here.

[rawksass.livejournal.com]

No, it isn't.

Heh, that must be one helluva job.

[battleofcards.livejournal.com]

[now he's used to Roxai being mean and >/-y, so he's... a little surprised. looks down at the cake on his plate, then offers it.]

[rawksass.livejournal.com]

[blink. then looks to the cake before smiling sheepishly]

Gee. That's awful nice of you- but I'm okay now, honest. You keep your cake.