will you pause and break my heart?

[selfishprick.livejournal.com]

[there's a familiar looking Axel sprawled out on a random bed. he's passed out, the smell of vodka on his breath. he's in nothing but a blanket, a sight that's not that uncommon... what's visible of his body is covered in scars. the one that stands out the most is the one around his left shoulder, which gives him away completely to those who knew him before.

the only problem is, he's not going to remember you. he's going to be a bit hungover and pissed to the nines when he wakes up. he doesn't remember a thing except getting really drunk the night before with his Roxas, and doing some E and... well, not much else.

feel free to harass at will, you know the drill.]

Comments

[selfishprick.livejournal.com]

Uh huh.

[buries his head back into the pillow]

feel free to godmode Akane, btw. since you know how babies act better than I do :)

[lightning-larx.livejournal.com]

Guess you had fun.

<3

[selfishprick.livejournal.com]

Sure. It was a wild night.

[mumbles it into the pillow, sitting up as he hears baby babble. it takes a minute before it registers that that's not Sora at all]

...

[lightning-larx.livejournal.com]

...

I think she wants to see you. I'm sure it can wait until you're feeling better.

[selfishprick.livejournal.com]

[he stares at the child for a moment, looking at her mother]

Who is she?

[lightning-larx.livejournal.com]

[stares.]

Very funny, Axel.

[selfishprick.livejournal.com]

... I don't even know who you are.

[unless 'Xene had a second kid without him knowing]

[lightning-larx.livejournal.com]

[stares more, her Raichu ears flat back against her head.]

You do too. Quit fucking around.

[selfishprick.livejournal.com]

You're the one sneaking up on a hungover man.

[tugs at the blanket to keep it in his lap. it's then that he looks down and notices that his right ring finger is just flat out gone. his heart begins to race, eyes going wide as shock sets in]

Where the fuck is my finger?!

[lightning-larx.livejournal.com]

Was there something in your drink or what?

[selfishprick.livejournal.com]

What do you know about this?

[he holds up the hand, pointing at the stump with a frustrated growling]

[lightning-larx.livejournal.com]

Saïx bit it off a few months ago. It didn't seem to bother you then.

[her tone almost accusatory, tail stiff and ears still back]

[selfishprick.livejournal.com]

... excuse me?

[lightning-larx.livejournal.com]

This isn't funny, Axel. Cut it out.

[selfishprick.livejournal.com]

It sure as hell isn't funny that I'm missing a finger.

[lightning-larx.livejournal.com]

No one's fault but your own, "lover."

[she's hoping that'll remind him, because she's not so sure he's faking it anymore]

[selfishprick.livejournal.com]

[it's not even the lover comment that makes him pause. it's the fact that his life (wherever it is now) isn't adding up at all. he's covered in scars, down a finger and god only knows what else]

[his head drops into his hands, trying to make things add up right]

so of course "Hikari" starts playing. silly media player.

[lightning-larx.livejournal.com]

[just busies herself with Akane, searching in the bag o' baby stuff on the stroller for a teething ring or something and pretending she didn't just hear the kid say "dada." Not like it means anything, right? Akane calls her that sometimes too.

This shouldn't upset her, and the fact that it does ticks her off.]

it's like it knows.

[selfishprick.livejournal.com]

[he just watches her through his fingers, confusion all over his face]

[lightning-larx.livejournal.com]

You don't remember anything?

[selfishprick.livejournal.com]

I remember getting drunk as hell and high with Roxas last night. Dancing with Riku. Coming home, fucking Roxas until we passed out... and waking up here.

[lightning-larx.livejournal.com]

You've been here before.

[does he still have the "XII" scar she gave him?]

[selfishprick.livejournal.com]

[he has every scar that was ever given to him at the dressing room... he just doesn't remember how he got them]

... don't 'member.

[lightning-larx.livejournal.com]

Try harder, then.

[selfishprick.livejournal.com]

[looks at her]

The only you I know is the one who wanted my sperm so she could have a kid like the breeders.