will you pause and break my heart?

[selfishprick.livejournal.com]

[there's a familiar looking Axel sprawled out on a random bed. he's passed out, the smell of vodka on his breath. he's in nothing but a blanket, a sight that's not that uncommon... what's visible of his body is covered in scars. the one that stands out the most is the one around his left shoulder, which gives him away completely to those who knew him before.

the only problem is, he's not going to remember you. he's going to be a bit hungover and pissed to the nines when he wakes up. he doesn't remember a thing except getting really drunk the night before with his Roxas, and doing some E and... well, not much else.

feel free to harass at will, you know the drill.]

Comments

[lightning-larx.livejournal.com]

Saïx bit it off a few months ago. It didn't seem to bother you then.

[her tone almost accusatory, tail stiff and ears still back]

[selfishprick.livejournal.com]

... excuse me?

[lightning-larx.livejournal.com]

This isn't funny, Axel. Cut it out.

[selfishprick.livejournal.com]

It sure as hell isn't funny that I'm missing a finger.

[lightning-larx.livejournal.com]

No one's fault but your own, "lover."

[she's hoping that'll remind him, because she's not so sure he's faking it anymore]

[selfishprick.livejournal.com]

[it's not even the lover comment that makes him pause. it's the fact that his life (wherever it is now) isn't adding up at all. he's covered in scars, down a finger and god only knows what else]

[his head drops into his hands, trying to make things add up right]

so of course "Hikari" starts playing. silly media player.

[lightning-larx.livejournal.com]

[just busies herself with Akane, searching in the bag o' baby stuff on the stroller for a teething ring or something and pretending she didn't just hear the kid say "dada." Not like it means anything, right? Akane calls her that sometimes too.

This shouldn't upset her, and the fact that it does ticks her off.]

it's like it knows.

[selfishprick.livejournal.com]

[he just watches her through his fingers, confusion all over his face]

[lightning-larx.livejournal.com]

You don't remember anything?

[selfishprick.livejournal.com]

I remember getting drunk as hell and high with Roxas last night. Dancing with Riku. Coming home, fucking Roxas until we passed out... and waking up here.

[lightning-larx.livejournal.com]

You've been here before.

[does he still have the "XII" scar she gave him?]

[selfishprick.livejournal.com]

[he has every scar that was ever given to him at the dressing room... he just doesn't remember how he got them]

... don't 'member.

[lightning-larx.livejournal.com]

Try harder, then.

[selfishprick.livejournal.com]

[looks at her]

The only you I know is the one who wanted my sperm so she could have a kid like the breeders.

[lightning-larx.livejournal.com]

["hmph"s and turns away]

I'm not her.

[selfishprick.livejournal.com]

Oddly enough, I caught on to that.

[lightning-larx.livejournal.com]

In fact, I'm no one you care about. I'll just leave you to your hangover.

[selfishprick.livejournal.com]

And yet you seem pissed I don't remember.

[lightning-larx.livejournal.com]

You're seeing things. I'm fine.

[selfishprick.livejournal.com]

Just because I can't remember doesn't mean I'm blind.

[lightning-larx.livejournal.com]

Then if I was upset, which I'm not, the reason should be obvious, assuming you're not retarded. And sometimes I wonder about that.

[selfishprick.livejournal.com]

Doesn't matter I guess since I'm as gay as a rainbow, princess.

[lightning-larx.livejournal.com]

[sighs. those silly ears droop.]

Yeah. I know.

[selfishprick.livejournal.com]

[he looks at her, tilting his head]

... fuck, do you love me?

[lightning-larx.livejournal.com]

[glares at him, ignoring the little stab of something (sadness? jealousy?) through the void where her heart should be]

Definitely not.