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[flurry-o-flames.livejournal.com]

[he sits in an armchair, head hung low and staring at the ground. his hair stands out like a bright red flame, but it's snuffed by the black-gloved fingers that run over it]

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[flurry-o-flames.livejournal.com]

[looks at him momentarily, then closes his eyes]

Beats me.

[flurry-o-flames.livejournal.com]

[looks up at him sidelong]

You the butler or something?

[flurry-o-flames.livejournal.com]

[amused snort]

You remind me of my Sora.

[flurry-o-flames.livejournal.com]

[nods]

Yeah. He likes to help too.

[flurry-o-flames.livejournal.com]

[offer a half-smile]

Yeah, thanks. ...think you could slip a little something extra in there, too?

[flurry-o-flames.livejournal.com]

[shrugs, embarrassed despite himself]

Like... whiskey or something.

[flurry-o-flames.livejournal.com]

Thanks.

[takes it from him, taking a long sip and savoring it for a moment, eyes closed in thought]

[flurry-o-flames.livejournal.com]

[cracks an eye open to look at him]

You okay?

[flurry-o-flames.livejournal.com]

[he snorts]

Think I need a little more than that.

1/I DON'T KNOW BUT I AM FROWNING AT YOU. LIKE A LOT.

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Hey, are you--

let's see if I can beat my record

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...

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Y-you...

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You asshole!

it would be nice if the page didn't take so long to load

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What- what kind of a person are you, leaving without saying anything! [he's getting really angry now, face flushed in indignation. He's going to yell at Axel for as long as he feels like it.]

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I didn't- you didn't even bother leaving a note. What was I supposed to think?

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[he's clenching his fists, hard, and he's visibly shaking now. But he's not finished.]

okay not quite. made it TO my record. I'M DONE.

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You said you wouldn't leave! You promised!

I hate you for leaving. How... how could you break that promise?

[now that he's finished yelling, all of the fight seems to have gone out of him. Roxas slumps to the floor without another word.]

[flurry-o-flames.livejournal.com]

[looks up at him, eyes narrowed in what looks like anger. his hands fall from his face to his knees and he just stares at him for a while before standing and striding over to stand in front of him. he towers over the young blonde, hands at his sides as he looks down at him]

You think I wanted to? You think I had a choice? You think I even knew it was going to happen? Fuck, Rox, how many times did I tell you I never wanted to leave? Maybe I should be mad at you for not coming with me.

[he sighs; a long, drawn-out, weary kind of sigh and he kneels in front of him, getting level with his face]

If you can take me back there, do it. If you can come with me, do it. I'm not living this miserable limbo of a half-existence without you, Roxas.

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I couldn't come with you! I wanted to, but I couldn't. I searched for you for two weeks, Axel. And after that, I tried to find a way out. Because I couldn't be without you. But it's not that easy to leave Wonderland.

Garfield even made signs. They're still up there. But it doesn't matter anymore, because you're not coming home.

[flurry-o-flames.livejournal.com]

You think I don't know that?

[a frustrated noise as he looks away]

I want to come home. I want to be with you. But we can't go either way together, so I'll settle for her. Fuck all else.

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I know. I'll stay here as long as I can, but... I can't make any promises.

I'm sorry.

OH GOD I MEANT HERE NOT HER WHAAAAT

[flurry-o-flames.livejournal.com]

Me either, I guess.

[eyebrow arches]

What're you sorry for?

I KNOW THAT, SILLY

[unbidden.livejournal.com]

Because I... I couldn't find you.

oh good |D;;

[flurry-o-flames.livejournal.com]

[sighs, looking at him again]

That's not your fault, silly.

[unbidden.livejournal.com]

I still feel like it is. Like I could have done something more to help.

[flurry-o-flames.livejournal.com]

Neither of us could control it, like anything else that place has done to us.

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... the mansion has given us a lot of good things too, you know.

[flurry-o-flames.livejournal.com]

I'm aware. It fucked us good and bad in equal measures.

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I don't regret a minute of it.

[flurry-o-flames.livejournal.com]

Neither do I.

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[for the first time in this whole conversation, he actually looks up at Axel, and gives him the smallest of smiles.]

I... I'm really glad to hear that.

It's good to see you again.

[flurry-o-flames.livejournal.com]

You didn't think I did, did you?

[he smiles that cocky smile of his, laced with relief as he pulls the younger into a warm embrace]

It's good to see you again too, sweetheart.

[unbidden.livejournal.com]

Of course not.

[he leans into that embrace without hesitation, still shaking, but for a different reason this time.]

I've missed you so much. It hurt so badly when you left.

[flurry-o-flames.livejournal.com]

Good.

[he threads his fingers through blond hair, kissing lightly at the younger's neck]

It hurt when I realized I was gone. I can't go on without you, Rox.

[he takes off his left glove, showing the wedding band still on his finger, and he uses that hand to cradle the back of Roxas' skull as he places butterfly kisses along his jaw]

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You don't have to go on without me. I'm here, and I'm not planning on going anywhere in a hurry.

[his grip tightens on Axel as the shaking increases, and tears slide down his cheeks. He never thought that he'd be able to be in Axel's arms again like this; to be able to do so is overwhelming, and his heart aches. He never wants this to end.]

[flurry-o-flames.livejournal.com]

Me either.

[he grips him tighter, kissing the tears from his cheeks now]

Don't cry, baby. Don't cry. I love you.

[unbidden.livejournal.com]

I love you too, Axel. And I always will.

[flurry-o-flames.livejournal.com]

I'll always love you too.

[and he kisses him lovingly, like he did the very first time]