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Looks like I am. [can't look at him right now. because between them, they're breaking his nonexistent heart in two.] Not worrying isn't as easy as it looks, huh?

.... [Roxas can't stand to see him like this. It tears him up, too. Not knowing what else to do he just.. goes with instinct, closes the distance between them somewhat, and very gently leans his head against Axel's chest, grabbing one of Axel's hands and squeezing it while he does it.] Stop. Just .. stop.

Edited 2008-02-27 05:48 (UTC)

[Axel inhales sharply, not expecting the move-- and them he just crumbles completely, wrapping his arms around Roxas and holding him with his free arm so so tightly.] Okay. Okay. I'm stopping.

[Lets out a shaky breath and releases his hand so he can wrap both arms around Axel's waist, nodding against his chest.] Good.

[he really isn't sure what to say right now, so for a few moments he just buries his face in Roxas's hair, inhaling softly and trying to get a grip on himself. After a few moments, he finally finds the words.] ... thanks, Rox.

[only tightens his grip on Axel's waist, letting him take as much time as he needs. Instead of replying, he momentarily leans up to press his lips against Axel's neck in something that is not quite a kiss - just a comforting gesture from someone who doesn't know much about them.]

[and-- he may need a little bit more time. Just maybe. The touch causes him to sigh softly, lose a little of the tension that had been building up in his body; he just exhales, and relaxes as much as he can manage. It's hard, but he knows that he's got to pull himself together. For both their sakes.]

[He understands that - really. He just keeps his arms looped around Axel's waist, not making any other significant movements or gestures, and waits. He does, however, keep his face pressed into Axel's neck - because he can, because he doesn't know how else to make this better.]

[The gesture helps a lot more than Roxas probably realizes- Axel isn't sure how to show this, though. In the end he just hums softly, hoping that the point should get across anyway. He appreciates everything that Roxas does for him, really. After a few more moments, though, he speaks.]

Want me to let go now? [he thinks- thinks that he can handle himself now.]

[Feels his mouth twitch into something like a smile when he hears that humming, so he does get it, a little bit. Not really wanting to pull back, he just tilts his head to look up at him.]

Not really. [regardless - he likes this, calm and unhurried and just them being, well, together.]

[he raises an eyebrow in surprise at this- but it's a pleasant surprise nonetheless.]

Then I won't. [whether he'll admit it or not, Axel likes it too. It's nice to be able to just stand here and hold his best friend in his arms without having to worry too much about everything else. And so he merely sighs contentedly, and rests his chin on Roxas's head again.]

Good. Actually .. I'm kind of surprised you haven't teased me yet so far. [Without anyone interrupting, without lust clouding it, without anything else - this kind of moment is something Roxas has been craving all along. A moment of just .. peace. He stays for a moment like that - then shifts briefly, tilting his head back to press his lips in another not-kiss to Axel's jaw before tucking his head under Axel's chin again.]

[laughs softly at this.] Nah, I think I'm gonna give you the day off from being teased. Unless you'd like to be. [It's a nice piece of peace, and Axel is determined to make the most of it. He isn't going to let go of Roxas until he has to- and quietly hopes that it won't be in a hurry, because this really is nice. Another soft noise of contentment leaves his lips, and he begins to rub soothing patterns on Roxas's back, just drinking in the tranquility of the moment.]

... no, I'm good for now. Really. [Luckily for Axel, Roxas has absolutely no plans on letting go or moving anytime soon - this is .. nice, now. As it is, he's not particularly looking foward to the moment when they actually do have to break apart again. Still, he can't help a muffled noise - like "mmmmf" - when Axel starts rubbing his back, and buries his head in Axel's chest as a result, melting a little bit. It feels really nice, but like hell will he admit it.]

I thought that you might say something like that. I think you're the one that's getting a little predictable. [And it seems that Axel is becoming a quick learner when it comes to the younger Nobody's likes and dislikes- he can tell that Roxas is at least enjoying the caresses a little bit, and keeps them up. They both need to take time out and relax from all that's been going on, and this seems like a good enough place to start.]

Hey, that's a little unfair. Who in their right mind would say yes to being teased..? [alsdkjfh a little bit would be an understatement; he's entirely leaning against Axel now, kind of boneless, and even sighs, though it's faint. It's the kind of thing that, under any other condition, might put him right to sleep. As it is, he snakes his arms up from Axel's waist to wrap them around his chest instead, hooking the fingers of one hand over Axel's shoulder for a better grip.]

If it's friendly teasing, I don't see why they'd object too much~ [and in response Axel keeps holding him, moving his arms up a little higher too so that he can hold Roxas better, so that they're more comfortable. He leans down a little so that he can rest his head in the crook of Roxas's neck; not nuzzling him. just wanting to be a little closer.]

Well, maybe if they were enjoying a little peace and quiet for once without being called "cute" or "handsome"... [is grinning a little, though Axel may not be able to see it - he'll hear it in Roxas's voice, though. Stretches a little bit in this new embrace, dropping his arms so he can wrap them around Axel's neck instead. He tilts his head back a little at the feel of Axel resting against his neck and ends up dropping a sortof kiss on his ear.]

If you don't want me to call you that anymore, I won't~ But even if I don't say it, the truth is obvious enough. [he sounds far too amused for his own good; it's nice to be able to joke around with Roxas like this. And having Roxas happy is a huge plus, too. His breath hitches in his throat a little from surprise- and responds by pressing his lips against the other's neck gently. Oh-so gently. Not quite in a kiss, because he's promised. Just enough to show his appreciation.]

I'm kind of used to being teased by now, but that doesn't mean I have to take it lying down. [rolls his eyes, but honestly, he's having fun with it too. He straightens a little, though, when he hears Axel's breath hitch and feels those lips against his neck -- a shaky sigh escapes him and he has to duck his head down to nudge Axel's up. He keeps at this until he's gotten Axel to lift his head enough so that he can press their foreheads together.] I want...

Will you take it standing up, then~? [Nope, he's never going to give up on teasing Roxas about that. Never ever. Well, at least never after this moment; he stops for the time being at least, just to pay attention to what Roxas is trying to do. He sighs a little in disappointment when he's moved from his comfortable position, but he willingly co-operates.] You want what?

[just rolls his eyes at that, but for the moment, he's more interested in finishing what he started. He hesitates, looking down for a moment.] ... this. [tilts his head up and kisses him, almost impossibly gently -- he knows he probably shouldn't be doing this, not now, but at this point he nearly can't help it, he wants it so bad.]

[Axel knows that he shouldn't be doing this either- but nevertheless he kisses back just as gently, taking it one slow step at a time. Rushing things is what got him into this mess in the first place.]

[he doesn't keep it up for too long -- but he does press in, kissing him deeply, just for a moment before breaking it off, though he doesn't make any moves to back off entirely. Still, he has to shut his eyes for a moment, resting his forehead against Axel's again, as he reigns his body back under control.] ... sorry. When can we..?

[he definitely makes the most of the kiss while he can, and returns it with equal want and need. after the kiss is broken, though, he goes back to holding Roxas just like he did before, willing himself to be in control again.] Don't apologize, you've got no reason to. When can we what...?