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[and of course Sora is going to run right into Ri, who looks happier than Sora has probably ever seen him, with his Darkness at rather low-levels compared to the maelstrom that Ri usually carries around him]

Sora!

[Meanwhile, Sora's are at an all time high! Fancy that. Especially now that he's run in to Ri.]

...Hey.

[...Notice he seems unusually distant, Ri?]

[Sora is getting a hug! a lift-you-off-your-feet hug!]

Good news!

[He's not going to be hugging back.]

Oh really?

[don't worry, Ri will let go soon enough because he's excited]

My 'bug came back! He came back the other night and he's really back!

[Considering the feels that have been simmering inside Sora's heart for awhile, and what they're related to? This is exactly the worst thing he could hear. Jealousy is beginning to boil over into pure envy. Sora's clenching a fist at his side to remain calm.]

That's good. So why aren't you with him?

[...Probably a lot more bitter in tone than he intended.]

Eh... my Sora told me I was hovering like a gargoyle and chased me out for a bit. I want you to meet 'bug. He really likes meeting the people I'm training, and you could be a good role model and stuff.

[That earns a bitter laugh.]

Me? A good role model? You're kidding, right? I'm bad news, remember? Raised by a Heartless, no qualms with throwing people to them? Not exactly kid-safe, y'know.

[Excuse him as he tries to pass, because he's angry and bitter and jealous and lots of very dark emotions.]

[that makes Ri blink because he feels like he might've missed something important]

What're you talking about? You've been doing well in training, though don't think I haven't noticed that you've been skipping out while I've been... under the weather. And I know you wouldn't teach 'bug bad things.

[He's missed a lot, actually.]

Yeah. Doing well in training. ...You sure miss a lot of things right under your nose, don't you?

[Ri's really not very observant sometimes]

Huh?

I don't want your training anymore. I'll do fine on my own from now on.

[Ri, use your senses. The emotions are practically on the verge of physically leaking off as darkness.]

[he does feel all the Darkness and it makes him worried; just how much did he miss anyway?]

Did something happen while I was sick? Why're you acting like this?

[Oh, Ri. It's going to take a lot of prodding to get him to admit to his issues, or even strike out in a way that would get to the source. Though this is well on the way down the right path for that.]

Because I've realized some things, one of them being I was better off alone.

[good thing Ri is stubborn]

Yeah, that's a lie. Tell me the truth. What happened?

It's not a lie. I'm tired of being hurt, so I'm better off alone.

[Because then he's not opening himself up for pain.

And yeah, very good thing.]

That's even worse. Cutting yourself off will just hurt you more in the long run, no matter how much you think you're protecting yourself.

[Ah. There it is. Just the right push. Sora is practically snarling.]

Why do you even care!? All you wanted was your precious 'bug, right!? I was just some distraction until he came back! And I fell for it, like the idiot I am!

[that makes Ri blink, but then he arches his brow, like Sora is being particularly stupid]

You do realize it's possible to care for more than one person, and in different ways, right? I don't feel the same way about you as I do my boyfriend Sora. And it's not the same as for 'bug, who's my son. You're my student, and you're my friend. Just because I care about other people doesn't mean I don't care about you.

[Now we're getting to the heart of things.]

You didn't even see me that day, Ri! All you saw was 'bug! It's like I didn't matter!

[He's hurt and angry and lots of things. But mostly he's scared of being left behind again.]

What day?

[still confused, because he's not really aware of what he did or what he was doing when he had the attack]

That day in that stupid room when there was all that darkness. You thought I was him. I didn't matter.

[that makes Ri frown hardcore, and he gentles his voice]

Sora... I don't remember anything of what happened that day. Kai and Sora told me after, that I was throwing up Darkness all night and hallucinating. I even tried to fight them because I thought there were enemies attacking me or something.

[Sora doesn't entirely understand it. It doesn't mend the damage done, because really, it's a lot of issues that need to be worked on. Lots of emotional issues.]

...It doesn't matter, anyway. I'm better off alone. Everyone I've tried to trust has hurt me in some way, after all. So why bother?

[okay fine, time to bring out the big guns; Ri pulls Sora into a hug, and he won't be letting go]

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Are they finally going to work on things?

possibly! or things will get worse, because Ri

It'll be entertaining, at least.

that's what we're aiming for

/Shares popcon

/omnomnom

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Sora has Issues. News at 11.

the more you know! /rainbow