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[AND SUDDENLY

a tinybun is not so tiny. in fact, he's looking downright human! about seven or eight, maybe, and a lot like his "mommy" aka Kai. the DR was nice enough to supply him with a fluffy green sweater and some children's denim pants, which is good because he's kind of in a frostbitten garden right now, staring at his new fingers.]

(ooc: s-shut up I was bored, it's not permanent-)

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Can you try?

[he feels terrible for even having to ask.]

Yes.

[he nods firmly, fully believing he could find Kai and quickly at that.]

Do you w-want mme to br-ing him here?

Can you please?

[he knows he isn't in any state to try going anywhere, and he needs the time it'll take for Apricot to find Kai to try to pull himself together again.]

[he nods and stands to go, resisting the urge to cuddle up to Riku because he knows very well that that won't help at all.]

[while he's gone Riku will be curled with his knees pulled up close to his chest, his head down and face hidden. he feels so very ashamed of himself for not being able to even go with Apricot, even if they're in a generally safe area.]

[it takes a bit of time for Apricot to return with Kai, because having your bun run up to you slurring on about Riku while human is kind of strange, and Kai needed a few minutes to sort things out. he comes in carrying Apricot, but the notbun tugs on him to be put down so Riku doesn't have to have him too close. so Kai's approaching on his own, very concerned.]

Riku?

[if anything, he hunches further in on himself. his collar is digging into his neck but he doesn't care. he's little better than he was when Apricot left, his time alone only underlining how much of a coward he's become.]

I'm sorry.. I didn't know what to do about... about him.

[he settles on his knees next to Riku and pulls him into a gentle hug, one hand moving to stroke his hair.]

It's okay, Riku. I understand, and so does he. He's a smart rabbit.

[he doesn't relax, not at first. then his whole body shudders and he turns his head to press against Kai's chest, listening to the heart beating there. it's a much steadier pace than his own's erratic beating, and he stays where he is even if he feels an aching twinge in his own chest.]

You're not angry, that I let him go on his own?

[he just holds Riku, rocking a little and continuing to stroke his hair.]

Of course not. Even if he looks human right now, he's capable of taking care of himself if he runs into trouble.

[he swallows, easing up a little on the grip he has around his legs. his chest still hurts, but he's putting that down to how easily he lost it when he saw what had happened to Apricot. his self-esteem is at an all-time low right now, and it isn't helped when he realizes just how much he's shut poor Apricot out over this.]

I'm sorry. It was just s-so unexpected.

I know, Riku. It's okay. He understands, too. He's been around just as much, remember? He's a smart little guy.

[Apricot honestly is only sad because he can't comfort Riku how he normally does, but isn't letting it bother him personally. he's just concerned for his friend. :(]

But... What are you going to do?

[it's so much easier to leave decisions in someone else's hands. he'd rather have orders to follow, some kind of direction.]

Well, Apricot is going to go find Axel and pester him for a while. You and me are going to go to the kitchen so I can make you something to help you relax.

[he sounds very sure about that. are you ready to be fussed over, Riku.]

[he feels a little steadier listening to Kai's tone of voice, and how quickly he responded. it still feels wrong that Kai would be making something for him and not the other way around, though. his arms drop from their hold on his legs, ready to push himself up when he can.]

Yes, mas- Kai.

You can call me master right now if it makes you feel more grounded.

[he'll force himself to get used to it. Riku needs to feel safe and calm and okay. he'll drop a kiss on Riku's head, then stand up, offering a hand.]

Thank you, master.

[he takes the hand, and a deep breath. having been granted permission helps. he glances around for Apricot on the ground out of habit, jerking a little when he catches himself. if Kai's let go of his hand, Riku will be in the usual place he gravitates to when following Kai.]

[he's keeping a gentle hold on Riku's hand, loose enough that if he wants to he can pull away. Apricot's already left to go see Axel by now.]

[he won't, not as long as Kai's still holding it. it's all about the master's wishes, after all. he's a little less anxious when he sees that Apricot's already gone, but the guilt he feels is as strong as ever. he'll be quiet the whole trip, eyes on the ground.]

[he'll just lead him to a quiet kitchen, right to the table.]

How does hot chocolate sound?

[Riku sinks to his knees on the floor as soon as Kai lets go of his hand, ignoring the phantom memory of black-clad legs beneath a different table, spread wide with unfastened pants. he means to give Kai an answer, he really does, but what comes out is-]

I let a vampire bite me.

[he stops, the hot chocolate mix in his hands, and looks over at Riku in surprise.]

You did?

[he doesn't sound upset or angry, if that helps any.]

I'm not sure if I did the right thing.

[one hand looks as thought it might be going for his collar, but it rubs over two small puncture wounds instead. there isn't a bruise, but he can't forget that it's there.]

Why not?

[he's going to go over and... just touch Riku's arm, hot chocolate set aside for a moment.]

He feels... dangerous, whenever I've met him. Like he could hurt me, but didn't feel like it at the time.

[he isn't meeting Kai's eyes, thinking of how easily he responded to old cues.]

He's a Luxord.