what is love, baby don't hurt me--

[fourteen]

[ hey DR, sup. Have a Xion wandering around with big floppy white bunny ears and little white wings (and a bunny tail, if you happen to see her from behind). She looks kind of cagey -- she keeps glancing around all cautious-like, as if she's trying to avoid someone.

she finally comes to a common area that seems safe enough, and relaxes a little. taking a breath, she starts looking around, one of her ears flopping into her face as she does so.

basically, this Xion is looking for Rikus. hopefully Rikus she knows. she'll stop you if she thinks she recognizes you, and give you big, confused eyes. ]


(ooc; she's avoiding any and all Roxae. feel free to ninja her regardless, but she might spook. |D)

Comments

[stilldontgotit.livejournal.com]

Xion, there's no way out. Not by choice, anyway, and even people who do leave usually come back.

[shakes his head again]

Heck, people who die wind up coming here.

[poppetry.livejournal.com]

[ she starts, then frowns sharply, though more out of fear than anger. ]

Riku, I have to leave. I'll figure out a way. Even if it means dying, I have to go back.

[stilldontgotit.livejournal.com]

[Tsk.]

You think you're the only one who thinks that way? I'm sure at least half of the people here have things to take care of. The fact is, it's not that easy.

Time stops, so when you do get out, then you can do whatever it is you have to do. Just know that leaving "for good" doesn't mean you won't come back here.

[poppetry.livejournal.com]

Shut up!

[ she bursts out with it, loud and sudden, but the look on her face is one of sadness, not anger. ]

I'm not supposed to be here...

[stilldontgotit.livejournal.com]

[... Geez. :C]

But you are, and instead of worrying about what'll happen back there, you should enjoy this place while you can.

Besides, you're... not the only one who winds up going away.

[poppetry.livejournal.com]

... I can't, Riku. This is for Sora's sake. There's no way I can just sit here and be okay with leaving him like that.

[ pause. ] Wait, what do you mean?

[stilldontgotit.livejournal.com]

[still frowning.]

You'll get your chance. If it helps, the Sora I know's wide awake, and he's a year ahead of me.

[pauses as well]

Roxas. He winds up merging with Sora... But the one I know? Separate again. If this place is anything like Luceti, then you could leave and come back without any problems.

[poppetry.livejournal.com]

.... [ Xion just takes a deep, deep breath and sighs. she's silent for a long time. ]

I want to make the right decision. But how can I do that if I'm stuck here? ... maybe I should just enjoy this while I can. It's not like there's anything else I can do.

[stilldontgotit.livejournal.com]

That's what I just said, isn't it?

Trust me, it's a lot easier to not focus too much on the future. I'd know.

[poppetry.livejournal.com]

I know, but ... it's hard. I hate just sitting still and not being able to do anything.

[stilldontgotit.livejournal.com]

Some things just aren't easy.

Just be glad you don't have to deal with half the things I do.

[poppetry.livejournal.com]

... things like what?

[stilldontgotit.livejournal.com]

Oh, turning on my best friend, giving into the darkness, and that's just a start.

[...tsk.]

Sora'd probably kill me if I said this, but if I could go back and not forget anything? I'd probably not let the darkness get to me.

[poppetry.livejournal.com]

... why would he kill you for saying that?

[stilldontgotit.livejournal.com]

Because if I did, then it'd change everything for him. Not just for him, but probably everybody.

[He shakes his head.]

But it's not like I can help feeling that way.

[poppetry.livejournal.com]

I can't blame you. I wonder what I would do, if I could go back to the very beginning knowing everything I know now. I might not stay in the Organization at all.

[stilldontgotit.livejournal.com]

It's a lot to think about. Even just knowing could change everything.

[poppetry.livejournal.com]

... it's probably best not to think about it. We won't know for sure until we leave anyway.

[stilldontgotit.livejournal.com]

Exactly. Besides, there's no telling when we'll leave.

I come and go a lot, but maybe I'm just lucky.