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[realising.livejournal.com]

It's been said that there are two tragedies in life: one being to lose your heart's desire and the other actually gaining it. I wonder, is getting what I want the most worth the tragedy? I'm starting to think that maybe - just maybe it might not be. The questions are still burning a hole in my head, but I don't know what would actually drive me after I found the answers. My life so far has been a never-ending circle of searching and killing and wondering, so if I cut out the searching and wondering parts..


...anyway. To everyone who's found their heart's desire.. was it worth it? Is it worth it?

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[iliekdarkness.livejournal.com]

Funny story about that. See, I've got just what I need...and all it took was becoming a heartless.

[realising.livejournal.com]

But aren't your needs different than your wants?

[iliekdarkness.livejournal.com]

Maybe, but it's not like it makes a difference anymore.

[amnesiatically.livejournal.com]

[with everything that's happened in comparison to such a laid back and lazy, happy, enjoyable life, he's not even sure what he wants anymore. he'd been perfectly happy idolizing a male friend of his a little too much to really wonder ... was that honestly what he wanted most? was there more?]

[either way, he's nestled his chin between his knees, arms looped loosely around them as he sits. it's a popular position for the boy when he's choosing only to be observant.]

[realising.livejournal.com]

[for once he's actually wondering what's running through his other's brain. he wonders if maybe they want the same thing out of life. he tilts his head slightly as he watches him.]

[celaje.livejournal.com]

[was walking by--pauses in mid-step. bows head down, puts his fist to his lips. after a while, turns towards him, standing firm. puts a fist against his heart.]

Is it as difficult for you, as it is for me, to get it?

[realising.livejournal.com]

[his mouth twitches into something that almost looks like a grin.]

Probably.

[flurry-o-flames.livejournal.com]

Definitely.

[realising.livejournal.com]

Let me guess.. you wanted your heart?

[xiglette.livejournal.com]

I guess! Everyone's been fighting for one, kind of.

[realising.livejournal.com]

You guess? So you've never found your heart's desire?

[thundering-lass.livejournal.com]

I don't think it's possible to have my heart's desire, as I have no heart. The desire is the heart.

[realising.livejournal.com]

Same here, I guess. If you had one, though, what do you think it'd be?

[haveacuraga.livejournal.com]

... I honestly think it's different for each person. But for me ... No.

[realising.livejournal.com]

Your desire must be different from my Aerith's, then.

[asylumblue.livejournal.com]

Well that's a silly thing to think about. You should always strive to have what you want.

[realising.livejournal.com]

Even if it isn't worth it?

[realising.livejournal.com]

But what if your desire is for a heart? Would you think that obtaining that would be worth the trouble?

[book-of-dawn.livejournal.com]

... I have regrets.

Light do I have regrets.

I found love only to lose it. I found redemption only to be told, again and again, that such a thing is impossible; that I can never atone for my crimes. I found emotion; but with that's come pain, and despair, and fear, and hopelessness, and all the shadows one could ever expect.

...

But then?

Then I see the way that the fireflies float through the gardens, they way they used to. Not as many as there once were. but they return. I see the flowers, the first flowers in ten years, start to peek through the ground and reach their nodding heads for the sky; I see the way that sunlight filters through the windows of the Great Library; I see the sun rise; I see the water of Rising Falls soar, reaching for heaven...

And my heart soars with those waters.

In the end... for all the pain, for all the regret... I think it was worth it.

If only so that I can truly appreciate the fireflies.

[realising.livejournal.com]

[this makes him laugh a little.]

Place sounds nice. [and familiar.. ] Back before I left the Organization, I used to watch the sunsets.. how much more awesome would it be if I were to watch them if I had a heart? I bet the ice cream would taste better too. Who knows? Maybe I could just sit and watch the fireflies?

[gotowardslight.livejournal.com]

I almost regret it...

All my life, I wanted to just get away from it all. It was just the same old thing every day, back on the islands. Kinda like a prison surrounded by water. When I finally got the chance to leave, I ended up causing heartless to attack the islands, not to mention that I became Keybearer. I mean, I like going to other worlds, but it's just not as easy as it used to be before it all started.

[realising.livejournal.com]

.. but it was worth it for you in the end?

[this answer.. oh it makes him think. hard. he's in his very own prison, isn't he? the prison of not knowing? what would happen if..

he sighs and leans back against a wall, eyeing this Riku.]

[insurgentkey.livejournal.com]

I was happy, and then it was ripped away from me.

[fidgets. he knooows he probably shouldn't get friendly with any other Roxas because it'll only make it twice as hard, but he's just a kid. a nosy, troubled kid.]

[realising.livejournal.com]

At least you have something to keep striving for.