when you're around.

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[--hey, lookit there. there's a Riku curled up on the couch, looking grumpy with a green blanket around him. he's playing a black DS, but he looks ready to go to sleep.]

That's... what you get. ... yeah, that's right, Bidoof...

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[he was holding his breath the entire time Riku was talking, and it can be identified by the way he tries to pull off like he wasn't, shaky breath huffing out against his neck. his fingers reach up and run through those silver strands, tucking some behind his ear.]

I never planned on stopping, either. I hate to go all poetic 'cause it's really not my thing, but.. watching you crumble is like watching myself all over again. ... you're not the only one hurting anymore. I liked when you were a peacock who wasn't afraid to show off his feathers.

[destinedtinsel.livejournal.com]

[he doesn't know exactly why Roxas is breathing against him or is running his hands through his hair, but to him--to hell with it. he's craved contact so badly, he'd be on his hands and knees if he didn't have any dignity.]

... this is why I push people away, it's because I don't like them affected by what I do. Could say that if you weren't taken, you'd be one of the first people I'd try to date.

[sigh. he puts the heel of his hand against his eyes.]

Fuck. I need to find something or someone quick. That isn't a video game...

[jailedbait.livejournal.com]

If you don't let someone else hurt with you, you'll overflow.

[whatever his lips just did may or may not have been a kiss to the side of Riku's neck.]

The last thing I want to see is my idol breaking.

[destinedtinsel.livejournal.com]

I can't overflow. Not even close right now.

[and he tries a crack at a reassuring smile, before his eyes widen slightly.]

... your idol?

[jailedbait.livejournal.com]

[swallows thickly.]

Riku as a whole has always been my idol. You never changed that fact at all. Even back home, Riku always held every last bit of Sora's affections as bad as I wanted them.

I wanted to be Riku. Riku was a bastard, a popular bastard and even when he hurt Sora, Sora still crawled to his feet and licked his boots.

[takes a deep breath.] But you showed me 'Riku' has compassion and a heart, somewhere out there. You were strong, happy, and no one could've stood in your way when you were with Sora.

When you killed me, I wanted to be you.

[destinedtinsel.livejournal.com]

[... he doesn't know why, but there's a pink tinge at his cheeks when he's finished, as he looks a little away.]

I've changed since then. Even I know that. On the other hand, you were in everyone's face when you came back.

I want to be that person again, if it was even possible. I--

[oh, way to come up, truth week. he's getting redder.]

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[and like a mind link, ... well. there is a long, blushing silence, and then in that old taunting voice, he murmurs,]

I meant everything I said.

[destinedtinsel.livejournal.com]

[g-groan, he's a little redder now.]

... you're not the only one.

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[llllicks the shell of his ear, snickering.]

[destinedtinsel.livejournal.com]

[way to make him verbally keysmash.]

[jailedbait.livejournal.com]

So kiss me, stupid.

[gives him a daring little glare. if he pretends for now, he won't feel guilty until he's out of Riku's sight.]

[destinedtinsel.livejournal.com]

... no. I can't.

[a quick glance away.]

I won't hurt your Sora like that. I know what it feels like.

[jailedbait.livejournal.com]

[sh-shit that hurts. twice as much. he feels like cold liquid right now, so he's just standing. his throat feels dry.]

Right.

[destinedtinsel.livejournal.com]

[the way he swallows and keeps his eyes away, it's just as hurtful for him.]

... sorry.

[jailedbait.livejournal.com]

[yeaaahh fun's kind of.. gone. so he'll just be walking away now.]