(no subject)

[heslikesunshine.livejournal.com]

[Tap. Tap. Tap. Tap.

Pencil, paper, pencil, paper.

Frustrated sigh, crumpling, and tosses the ruined sheet.

His head was too muddled to draw properly, he couldn't concentrate... damn it he needed something to do. Maybe something that didn't involve Axel. Lord only knows how those situations turn out. Doubts. Constant doubts since that Riku came into the picture. Left it. Whatever.

Trust was gone. Roxas felt irked and tired. He didn't want to doubt or argue with Axel anymore. But damn he couldn't forgive and forget.

And it always ended in sex.

He was starting it mistrust that too.

And dammit his wrist hurt! There was a spasm and he clutched his arm to his chest]

Hate this place... so bad.

Comments

[cattishly.livejournal.com]

What's wrong?

[comes up slowly, hoping the other doesn't attack him]

[heslikesunshine.livejournal.com]

Nothing. My wrist just hurts... and I don't like it here/

[stated simply, not even looking at him]

[cattishly.livejournal.com]

Oh...I'm sorry.

[comes a bit closer]

[heslikesunshine.livejournal.com]

Don't apologize. It's not your fault.

[manages a slight smile to him, letting his hands fall to his lap]

[cattishly.livejournal.com]

[scoooooooooches clooooooser]

Why're you so sad looking?

[heslikesunshine.livejournal.com]

[he eases into a more sincere smile now, he couldn't help it]

Just... tired of this place. One bad thing after another, that's all.

[cattishly.livejournal.com]

[n-nods]

Probably, but things get better!

[okay totally at your feet now, smiling up]

[heslikesunshine.livejournal.com]

[aw jeez... so damn cute, he reaches over to ruffle his hair]

I hope you're right.

[cattishly.livejournal.com]

I am, don't worry!

[licks his hand gently]

[selfishprick.livejournal.com]

[bites his lip as he overhears that remark, having just stepped in the room from a shower. his scars are bared for the world to see, hips barely covered with a towel. he quietly goes over to the dresser, plucking out a black tank top to put on before facing the blond]

Heh, can't say I'm a fan either.

[heslikesunshine.livejournal.com]

I don't see why you wouldn't like it here.

[spoken blandly before cursing to himself, rubbing his arm and wrist]

[selfishprick.livejournal.com]

[his voice is soft, eyes full of hurt]

Because it's fucked things up between us so badly.

[heslikesunshine.livejournal.com]

[is quiet for a moment]

I'm sorry I'm like this. I... don't mean to be.

[hesitates]

I...- after the bashing, I don't feel up to par. I feel like some broken thing. I get angry... I want to give up on everything, sometimes I think it would have been better if I just...

[trails off, not wanting to finish that. instead he just shrugged a shoulder]

If a bat to the head didn't break us apart...

[couldn't finish that either]

[selfishprick.livejournal.com]

I know, Roxas. I was there for every step of it, remember? I helped you through it, the best I could.

[moves closer, kissing his cheek softly]

The bashing only made us stronger. We can't let some dimensional fuck up ruin us.

[heslikesunshine.livejournal.com]

[links his arms around Axel's waist, leaning his forehead on his chest]

I'll... try to be more accepting. It's just hard sometimes.

[kisses his chest]

[selfishprick.livejournal.com]

[shivers from the kiss, smiling down at the blond]

I promised you loyalty, and I meant it.