Buh?

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Wha... huh?

I go poking around in Space Paranoids (and must wonder why, exactly, Ansem named it -that-), and find...

What exactly IS this?

Ah Light, Leon will probably blame ME for this... whatever it is... and try to have me arrested. Again. Ugh. I don't need this...


[OOC: Ienzo, post KHII, having regained his heart and returned to Radiant Garden in an effort to redeem himself, after Many Weird Adventures. Thus, rather... different than the Ienzo you're used to.]

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Remember how I mentioned that we all had our hearts rather gruesomely ripped out?

Thing is, when the Dark takes your heart like that, and you've got a particularly strong will to live, you don't die. Your body and soul stay attached together. Granted, said body and soul get ripped through the realms of Darkness and twisted into something inhuman. If you're strong enough your outer shape remains human, but internally you're anything but.

That is a Nobody - the empty husk left over when the essence of your being has been removed. You don't age, you gain incredible power over Dark and Light (being of neither), you become bound to an element (Axel, for instance, gained power over Fire; I gained power over Illusion) and have a soulbonded weapon (Myde's was a sitar; mine a large book called the Lexicon), and are highly resistant to damage. You also have no heart, are almost emotionless unless you pretend in a vain effort to keep your humanity, are at risk of dying if you lose the will to live, and the universe itself tries to destroy you becuase you're not supposed to exist at all, you're a remainder in an equation.

Did I mention that you become horribly amoral and inhuman? Well, there. I did.

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*takes this all in and processes it*

Lexicon... so that's what the other Zexion was referring to last night.

I shall proceed with caution, then.

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... I have to admit. I miss the Lexicon, and the Gift (that is, my power over Illusion.) I can still smell people's auras, and with the return of my heart I can... feel their emotions, a little. But...

The price was not worth it. Still, I am tempted and that frightens me. I wonder if I tried to call on those weapons now if I would fall again to darkness. to temptation.