if at first you don't succeed?

[dominatingly.livejournal.com]

[taps bottomsforall's shoulder, having had quite a party figuring out which Riku was the right one. he looks paler than he should but otherwise fairly normal, if not for the odd tired calmness he's got going]

Got a minute, or are you busy?


[ooc: heading out soon but I wanted to put it up. just talking to the beforementioned fellow, gracias]

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[bottomsforall.livejournal.com]

[jj;kj; practically shits a brick with surprise, but calms after a moment]

...I uh,

--Rox?

[d-doesn't understand]

[dominatingly.livejournal.com]

For your information, you were as hard to find as I thought.

[siiiiiighs]

Wanted to say something if that's fine.

[bottomsforall.livejournal.com]

I'm...sorry.

[stands there awkwardly]

...Yeah?

stupid coding

[dominatingly.livejournal.com]

Just how this place is.

[collects his thoughts for a few moments]

If I didn't care, I wouldn't have been...crying...when I was hiding. Overhearing...that just made it worse. And if you didn't matter I wouldn't have tried to understand.

I wouldn't have made myself look like a moron following Rikus around to figure out which one was you either.

[more or less bit out the word 'crying', still hating it, but he figures it was obvious enough that he cried at some point]

...For starters. Not good at this, so.

Re: stupid coding

[bottomsforall.livejournal.com]

[j-just stares, knowing the shock is plain on his face as he looks at the other, feeling almost sick to his stomach. He kept going away, trying to give Roxas his space, and this is what it got him.]

R-Roxas--

You have someone. Shit. Shit. Don't make this harder, please, not when he's there too.

Re: stupid coding

[dominatingly.livejournal.com]

Have..? I just...

[isn't quite sure what to say, having anticipated a number of things but not that one, looking at the floor so he doesn't feel too stupid]

He said I'm his only friend here.

[bottomsforall.livejournal.com]

...You're just friends?

[very, very quiet, wondering if he was wrong]

[dominatingly.livejournal.com]

As far as I know. Doubt Soras are the ones that tend to be insincere.

[watch him not quite follow here, but he's busy trying to make it not apparent he'd having a dizzy spell]

[bottomsforall.livejournal.com]

As--

---As in you don't.

[oh god oh god feels so dumb]

As in you're not...dating?

[dominatingly.livejournal.com]

[tired Roxas is tired but he'll balk at you anyhow]

Not unless I missed something, and that'd be a feat.

[bottomsforall.livejournal.com]

[just kind of stands there, voice oh so quiet]

I'm so sorry.

[dominatingly.livejournal.com]

Didn't find you for that.

[waits a moment - sucks when dizziness leaves one seeing black for a moment, but it passes]

Just...thought I'd try and say that, since I didn't get much chance.

[bottomsforall.livejournal.com]

Have....

[looks up, at Roxas, and then back down]

Have I fucked us--t-this, I mean, anything up, too bad?

[dominatingly.livejournal.com]

We've aruged since we got here. Not sure what you'd fuck up on your own.

[bottomsforall.livejournal.com]

[biting his lip hard]

I missed you. I.

I mean. I'm sorry, I just.

[f-fumbleee]

I don't know what you want, Roxas.

[dominatingly.livejournal.com]

Didn't know what you wanted either, so I asked.

[wavers just a little but steadies himself]

Doesn't usually matter what I want.

[bottomsforall.livejournal.com]

[s-sees that]

Yes it does--

--have I ever given you the impression that I don't care what matters to you?

[h-hopes not]

[dominatingly.livejournal.com]

That you don't know, maybe.

Not sure.

[bottomsforall.livejournal.com]

...I'm...I'm really sorry. I am.

[swallows hard]

[dominatingly.livejournal.com]

Figure you are when you say it more than once.

[bottomsforall.livejournal.com]

[swallows down a retort]

What else should I say? What do you want me to say?

[dominatingly.livejournal.com]

Was just glad you didn't argue with me about whether I cared or not.

[bottomsforall.livejournal.com]

...I'm sorry.

[doesn't know what else to say]

[dominatingly.livejournal.com]

[wavers again, righting himself]

Broken record.

[there's no bite to it, almost like it's an observation]

[bottomsforall.livejournal.com]

I don't know what else to say.