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[jailedbait.livejournal.com]

What .. ah?

I'm not on Death Row?

... I'm not on Death Row!


{ooc; 'sup, newbie here~ make way for a bat-shit killer.}

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[jailedbait.livejournal.com]

In seventh grade I broke a girl's arm for breaking up with Sora and making him cry.

In eighth I killed a dog for chasing us down.

Right before the year ended, I tried strangling Riku. He and Sora didn't talk for a month after that. I realized I was growing an addiction to seeing the people that hurt him in pain, and soon enough it just grew to loving the pain of others.

I kill now because I ... I can't help it.

[oathskept.livejournal.com]

.. there's .. help for that sort of thing, you know.

[jailedbait.livejournal.com]

By god, I just want him back. If it were the only thing I could ask for from this fucking world ... [flinches.]

[oathskept.livejournal.com]

... maybe you could. But you'd probably .. have to change. Sora doesn't like seeing the people he cares about hurt .. even if they don't care about him. And he's the type who would .. forgive you. Given time.

[jailedbait.livejournal.com]

Thing is, while I'm here, I don't know if I'll ever get back, and if that's the case, ... [shivers] I'll never even get the chance.

[oathskept.livejournal.com]

You don't know for certain. None of us do, but if we got there in the first place .. we could probably end up back where we came from, again. And if that's true.. maybe you could get that chance.

I don't .. mean to offer false hope, or anything. But it's possible.

[jailedbait.livejournal.com]

[turns his head away.]

If you say so.

[oathskept.livejournal.com]

[frowns, because he feels like he almost had something there, but lost it at the end]

.. what will you do?

[jailedbait.livejournal.com]

Kill until I get bored, I guess.

[oathskept.livejournal.com]

.. you know, the Soras that are here .. won't like that. They'd probably try to stop you, if they knew.

[jailedbait.livejournal.com]

That's good, then.

[oathskept.livejournal.com]

.. is this really what you want?

[jailedbait.livejournal.com]

No, but what I want is far from my reach. I'll never get it.

[oathskept.livejournal.com]

.. even if you never get exactly what you want, this isn't the way to do things. Maybe it could be better.

[jailedbait.livejournal.com]

It could be, but I don't know how to start making it better. Sometimes I like being like this. I'm not sociable, I don't like people.

The way I am keeps them back.