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*plops next to him* Oof.

...Yeah, me too, kid.

[wanders into the room, feeling against the walls]

Get.....get a pet, maybe? [quiet, obviously expecting to get yelled at]

Yeah, tell me about it!

[whump. he falls back onto the couch, huffing.]

It's not even fair. I didn't even get to say goodbye ...

[his face is twisted with anger, and he huffs out a breath of fire.]

A pet ... a pet. I had a friend who was a puppy. His name was Patch. Dunno where he disappeared to.

... oh, and I own two AI units. They're not much fun, though.

[eyes him.]

Did you have someone?

[there's a slight pause, his back straightening.]

Yeah. Long time ago. We let go of each other. I figured not having someone that could love you back was pretty scarring.

'sides, it was another Sora. Can you imagine the looks he'd get when he went back home? Narcissist that found a clone. It was better this way...

[he's rambled a bit, and got quieter as he went on.]

[can't help but offer him a bitter smile.]

We're in the same boat, kid. I was with another Roxas. He was older than me, hella cuter, too. God ...

[winces, looking down at his boot.] We made up pet names for each other so we could distinguish ourselves from the crowd when calling someone's name.

He was Cupcake and I was Patches.

*tightens lips sympathetically, then raises eyebrows at the puff of fire, impressed*

Yeah... I know what you mean. What happened? That is... if you want to talk about it.

Honestly? I don't know what happened. We fought, and shortly after that I stopped seeing him around. We'd made up in the end though, he told me I was all he wanted.

... 'then this shitty room sent him back home. Left me here by myself, and ... this whole fucking lifetime has something against me. I've done and had more shit than this, too.

[glances over at him and swallows, rubbing the back of his hand to his eyepatch.]

Bet he was. Mine was exactly like me. 'cept he was the hero and I was the bad guy, if you wanna get technical.

[he sits up, smiling lightly.]

Cupcake and Patches. Cute.

*puzzled expression, looks at the floor, reflecting* Huh.

But you made up in the end, right? That's all that matters. I'm sure he's happy, knowing that you heard him. ...Not exactly what I'd call the most satisfying end to things, but he could show up again at any time, don't you think?

It'll be alright.

I guess I was the bad guy and he was ... your average Joe. Just a college guy who apparently had a kid.

I was a murderer. I don't know if I still am.

[takes a deep breath.]

I miss him so much. Ever since I came from Hell it's easier to look in the mirror, but not by much. It's even worse to be surrounded by them.

Bet you feel the same, heh ...

You know, I'm sure it'd be tons more easy to handle if everything else in my life didn't seem so goddamn depressing. I mean even if I returned home, I had the electric chair waiting for me in five days.

... plus, I'm already dead now. I don't know if the effects will carry, but I had a Riku slit my throat.

Then this room sucked me back from Hell.

Sounds nice, though.

Ooh, murder.

[his eyes are closed, and he sighs. his voice is actively bitter.]

... can't feel emotions, so I can't really feel? But... it's like there's a bigger emptiness, I guess.

Erk. I can't even look at another Sora.

*silent*

...Ahh. I see.

Well that sounds like a pile of hot mess.
Can't say I've ever been to Hell, though. What's it like down there? As bad as they say it is?

When you're down there, all you can think about is how much you love the queen.

... aaand that's about it. You also succumb to your innermost desires way too easily.

It really toned me down in the long run though. I came here wanting so bad to fight in the war. They were going to give me the prettiest biggest scythe to haul around, and I'd lop heads like cutting vegetables. I was so excited.

It all seems so boring now, though. Killing just doesn't satisfy me anymore.

Have I ever told you about why I started killing?

I think I'd like having my innermost desires, though. If I can succumb to them easily in Hell, does that mean Hell's chock full of opportunity? I think you've lost me on this whole Hell thing.

...Guess I'd have to think about what it is I really want, though. Maybe lovin' this queen wouldn't be worth it afterall.

[pause] Can't say loppin' heads off really appeals to me either.

What would satisfy you, right now?

Tell me~.

I'm always up for some good storytime.

Well, more or less the desires that appeal to a sin. You got something deep and dirty, you tell her whether you want to or not. She dangles it in front of your nose and tells you to worship her and you do because there's nothing else left.

I mean, you're already dead by then, so you might as well ...

It used to be fun. I enjoyed it when I killed for my brother.

What would satisfy me right now? ... probably a blowjob, but I'm just not feelin' it right now.

...Sounds like it'd get old after a while, yeah. Might be fun for a little while... but only if she's hot. [grins, trying to lighten the mood at least a little]

[raises eyebrows] Hm. Yeah can't say I'm feeling it either.
Well besides that, you could try getting to know someone around here, again. There are plenty of Soras running around and there's always me. [smile] Sounds like you've been through a lot, maybe now's a good time to try and simplify your life.

Oooonce upon a time there were two boys, brothers-- Sora and Roxas, that Roxas being me.

See, my life depended on Sora. I wouldn't eat without him at the table, I wouldn't join a game unless he did, I wouldn't sleep until he crawled into bed with me, and this basically carried on for years. I always loved my brother so much, he was the center of my universe.

Then, middle school. He started exploring his feelings and I started realizing I didn't like that. He got a girlfriend and I stopped playing with him. I started doing everything by myself and I wanted nothing to do with her. She knew I hated her.

Well, when she broke up with him, he cried. He was too serious about that relationship for such a young kid and it hurt him, so I broke her arm. I told her that if she told, I'd kill her kitten. She never did tell. I was surprised.

After that, Sora started to cling to me. He called me his hero and he played with me more. I loved it. I loved that we'd lay together on the grass, I loved that he'd ask me to kiss him on the lips because he missed his girlfriend, but to him it was all so innocent; never more than play.

But it was deep for me, so deep. I sailed when he paid more attention to me, and it got better and better until he discovered Kairi. She ... well. She had an attractive personality. She was very charismatic and we had intelligent conversations sometimes.

I stopped talking to Sora as much, and he started going out more. I didn't really mind, I was used to being on my own by then.

Oh, but the fun never ends. Sora's tutor, Riku, started hanging out with him. The jock, the massive heart throb, the one with intentions strictly pointing to himself for his own benefits, and Sora was such an easy target to manipulate. They seemed like friends, but he was brainwashing him slowly. Subtle hints that the way he hangs out with me was a little weird, subtle hints that sharing a bed with me was a little too close for comfort.

He broke us apart. He stole Sora from me just so in the end ... he could get closer to Kairi.

[hugging you now?]

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