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I probably would too, to be honest. I deserve it. [bites his lip, and turns away from Roxas, approaching the portal. Might as well make the most of it, if Roxas isn't willing to.] ... I know. [waves his hand a little in Roxas's direction]

Said I'd figure something out, didn't I?

[he's surprised by this, to the extent that he actually follows him for a step or two before realizing what he's doing, at which point he just.. freezes, one hand curling into a white-knuckled fist at his side.]

.... you did. But that something .. can't include both of us.

I know it can't. But it looks like you've forgotten what I said already, huh? [just shrugs. doesn't turn around, because he doesn't want Roxas to see how badly this is affecting him.] For what it's worth-- nah, never mind. I should go.

Wh- [surprised again, only this time he gets angry, because he's not letting Axel go like this. Instead he storms over and seizes Axel's arm, spinning him around - and when he sees the look on his face his own expression crumples, but he does it anyway. That is, grabbing Axel's face in both hands and kissing him, deeply, one last time before practically tearing himself away.]

Idiot.

[For what it's worth now, he kisses back desperately, like a man who's got nothing left to live for anymore. And maybe he really doesn't. The look in his eyes and the expression on his face as Roxas tears himself away is unreadable, but the blond knows him well enough to realize that he isn't happy.]

... you're only hurting yourself by doing this. Do what you want, and be content with that.

[Well .. if he had a heart, suffice to say it would be breaking. Or shattering. Or both.]

Don't be stupid. You have to know what it is I want, by now. You said you'd figure it out - so do it. Back it up.

[only Roxas ever gets to see Axel looking so broken. His shoulders are slumped slightly in defeat, and he's biting his lip again.]

It's not that easy. But. You know I'm willing to try. Will you wait for me? Will you make your own decisions and not let anyone else decide for you? [nooot happy about other Axel's presence, oh no.]

[and vice versa. this is clearly eating him from the inside out and his expression has turned dead and stony. when he speaks, though .. it'd oddly quiet.]

Remember what I said? .. I'll be here. I'll wait. [pauses at that, his jaw tightening] My morals and decisions are my own. No one else is going to make my final choice for me but me.

... that's all I need to hear. [it's a little risky at the moment, but nonetheless he reaches over to ruffle Roxas's hair. anything to get a reaction out of him other than looking like someone just took all of his Christmases away.]

Just need a little more time, that's all.

[his dead, stony mask cracks for just a moment to show something like sadness, maybe a little gratefulness at the action. He reaches up as if to swat Axel's hand away, but all that happens is his fingers linger over Axel's for just a moment before he drops his hand again.]

... okay. That's-- .. okay.

Edited 2008-02-26 08:28 (UTC)

[oh he is tired of this. Axel takes Roxas's hand in his, gently, and intertwines their fingers. Uses his other hand to tilt his chin up to look at him, and-- there it is. A genuine smile.]

I'm not letting you go without a fight, Roxas.

[he goes very still at this, eyes very wide, not sure how to react at first - but after a moment he smiles too, faint and slow but real.]

Good.

[and there goes the relieved look again. but after only a small while, he hesitantly loosens his grip.]

Hate to cut the party short and be blunt, but-- if I don't go through that portal now and start fixing everything, there's not gonna be much stopping me from jumping you. So~ [mock bows, and kisses Roxas's hand] Until I know what I'm doing with my existence... I should really go.

[swallows visibly, shifting from foot to foot] .. yeah. If I don't jump you first. [have a shaky, crooked grin, though he throws in a roll of the eyes at the mock bow] .. I understand. I'll .. see you later, right?

Of course you'll see me later. I'll be checking up on you over the network. Just-- from a distance. So I don't lose my resolve and end up jumping you before I'm done. [grins mischievously] But don't worry. You'll get what you want. [gives in to impulse and kisses Roxas- one last time, honestly!- before stuffing his hands into his pockets and heading towards the portal for real this time.]

.... okay. That's- I can live with that. [tries to pull a frown at that grin, but the flush returning to his cheeks so does not help his case] I wi-? [is cut off by the kiss and is so very not minding as he returns it for all he's worth until Axel pulls away, which, in the end, leaves him a little dazed. However, this time, he .. just lets Axel go.]

See you.

[turns back for a moment to grin at Roxas, the mischievous look still there] I'll do whatever it takes to get you laid before we both leave. So stop fretting. [blows him a kiss, and steps through the portal for good this time. But not before saying:]

Definitely. I promise I'll be back.

[definitely splutters at the "get you laid" thing, actually turning noticeably red in the face, but Axel says his parting words and goes before he can even recover. He stares at the spot where the portal was for a moment before heaving an epic sigh. The following is said fondly, rly:]

Idiot.

(I love how epic these two are, holy jesus.)

{AS DO I. Roxas, I hereby crown you Axel's queen of the Kingdom Hearts Dressing Room. ~~I get to crawl off to bed soon dying of the cute and a broken heart from the angst. :<~~}

(HE .. WOULD APPRECIATE IT IF HE WERE KING, NOT QUEEN? *shot* ~~seriously, from the way they went ANGST to ~FLUFF~ to WANGST to ~HOT FLUFF~ to UBER!ANGST to ~FLUFF~ in this entry .. could give anyone whiplash. I think we both need to recuperate. :<~~)

{AXEL SAYS THAT PEOPLE WHO ARE KINGS HAVE TO TOP. ;D ~~It may give people whiplash, but it is so worth it. Ahaha, I just hope that Saix-mun doesn't hate us too much. :D;;; I think that we do too. Clearly. :< ♥~~}

(ROXAS GOES "ldkja-- ..... :|b" *shot AGAIN* ~~like I said, totally epic, man. alkdjah SAIX MUN. HI SAIX MUN WE LOVE YOU. AND YOUR INBOX. WE LOVE IT SO VERY MUCH. W-WE'LL STOP MOLESTING IT NOW. asljkfa sleep. need. must get. laterz ♥~~)

{Axel says that Roxas topping would be hot, and he highly supports this idea. |D YEAH JO WE'RE SORRY AND WE LOVE YOU A LOT, HONESTLY. but hey at least you get Axel/Roxas out of it? >_> yeah I haven't slept much for the past fe-- since this place opened. I'm hitting the sack too. SLEEP WELL ♥}

[You do know Saix is going to kill them both eventually. u_u]

{Axel says go kill off another Axel and Roxas. D< YOU'VE CAUSED US ENOUGH TROUBLE ALREADY.}