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[didibecomeahero.livejournal.com]

[Zack's in one of the hallway's of the apartment building tonight. Or, more accurately, he's leaving the room of one NPC female of the DR after a mutual one night stand. What, most people here already know of his reputation. There's no need to be surprised.

He just pauses to pull his shirt back on before heading back to his place. Kahn is probably waiting for him.]

[ooc: What.]

Comments

ohi she still has icons

[23smallwishes.livejournal.com]

[... well then.]

:D

[didibecomeahero.livejournal.com]

[...Uh-oh.







....Um. WHAT DO?]

oh gosh I've forgotten my voice for her

[23smallwishes.livejournal.com]

Well, seems like you're busy so I'll be talking to you some other time?

[Yep, turning and walking away.]

D: Play more crisis core?

[didibecomeahero.livejournal.com]

[aksfdj hurries after her.]

Aerith, wait!

don't have time ):

[23smallwishes.livejournal.com]

No, no, no, I know you're busy, I might as well go.

[DENIED.]

:c

[didibecomeahero.livejournal.com]

[Well technically he's not busy anymore...

Grabs her hand to try to keep her from walking away.]

Wait, you don't...

[Understand? No she probably understands just fine. Man, how does he even explain this? Especially when he doesn't even really face it himself.

...Yes, there is an actual reason for his ladies man, sleeping around thing.]

[23smallwishes.livejournal.com]

Understand? Actually, I do. I'm not a little kid anymore, Zack, I know when a guy wants quality time to sooth his hormones. So I'll leave you with that.

[And it's not like they're officially dating each other or something :/]

[didibecomeahero.livejournal.com]

[He wishes they were. :c]

That's not what I...

[...Come on, Zack. Finish your sentences. :|

...Sighs.]

..Look. I'm not, proud, of what I do, okay? I just...It kind of, fills the void. Or something...I don't know..

[After he got killed back home, he lost hope in ever seeing anyone from home again. It hurt. This helped take some of the pain away, if only for a little while. But he cant commit to any of them because he never really got over Aerith. So now he's just messed up.]

[23smallwishes.livejournal.com]

A void. Right.

[And she just nods.]

Then do what you keep wanting to do, Zack, until that void is filled. Tell me when you find happiness, alright?

[didibecomeahero.livejournal.com]

[....He feels like a dick. Seriously. He messed up big time.]

But, I'm not....





[..............................Lets go of her hand. What was he thinking? She'd never want to be with a guy like him anyway. Maybe the guy he could have been, but now? There's no way.]

I'm sorry.

[23smallwishes.livejournal.com]

You don't have to apologize. It's not like you did anything wrong.

[didibecomeahero.livejournal.com]

...But it feels like I did.

[It feels like he's ruined things between them. :c]

okay, LJ, don't break on me

[23smallwishes.livejournal.com]

[He kinda did. Either way, she won't consider dating him for a while.]

You're free to do what you want. No one's stopping you.

D: /covers it in duct tape

[didibecomeahero.livejournal.com]

[And he will be depressed and actually stop sleeping around now!

Mostly just because resigning himself to being alone now. :c



...Just....Doesn't say anything, his eyes on the floor. Sure, he feels bad about this whole thing, but he also feels like he let her down...He did let her down.]

...I messed up, huh?

plz load my threads properly kthx

[23smallwishes.livejournal.com]

[Headtilts at that.]

... well, did you? I'm not judging you as a friend, I'm just respecting your wishes and what you do with your life.

/kicks it

[didibecomeahero.livejournal.com]

I've changed too much, since Radiant Garden.

[Maybe it's better that he won't be going back. :c]

[23smallwishes.livejournal.com]

Well, you're not a kid anymore, aren't you?

[didibecomeahero.livejournal.com]

Even so..




....Aerith, ever since we were kids, it's your opinion that I valued the most. So, be honest with me..Are you disappointed, in the person I am now?

[23smallwishes.livejournal.com]

To be honest, a little. I looked up to you a lot before. But that's probably just the delusions of a little girl back then.

[didibecomeahero.livejournal.com]

[...Sighs.]

I'm sorry I didn't turn out to be the guy you thought I was..

[...This sucks. Maybe he should go get some training done to take his mind off it. Nothing like the abuse of training to get you to stop beating yourself up :|]

[23smallwishes.livejournal.com]

It was my own expectation, you didn't have to fit in it. You should live with how you want, not to please others.

/considers giving him more icons

[didibecomeahero.livejournal.com]

[Sighs and runs a hand through his hair.]

But I'm not really doing that either..

:o

[23smallwishes.livejournal.com]

Just keep trying to find your own way, Zack.

/needs to download more CC scenes

[didibecomeahero.livejournal.com]

[....Nods.

To be honest though, he believes that he lost his chance for that a long time ago. There was only ever one thing he wanted to do with his life. Now he thinks he cant do it.]

/needs to replay it badly

[23smallwishes.livejournal.com]

I'll try to help you on your way since I'm a friend, but that's all I can do. You have to make the decision yourself.

Plaaaaay iiiiiiiiiiiit

[didibecomeahero.livejournal.com]

...Thanks, Aerith.


...But, I don't think I'll be able to do it.

I miss that 1000 soldier battle mission, god

[23smallwishes.livejournal.com]

Have you tried yet? You're giving up already.

;;

[didibecomeahero.livejournal.com]

...I did try. I failed.

[How can he become a hero when he's technically supposed to be dead?]

[23smallwishes.livejournal.com]

Doesn't mean you give up on one failure.

[didibecomeahero.livejournal.com]

I cant go home anymore, Aerith. How am I supposed to become a hero when I'm supposed to be dead? I couldn't even protect myself, let alone anyone else.

[Can you tell this has been bothering him?]

[23smallwishes.livejournal.com]

And the people here? As far as I heard, you've been good friends with a lot of people. Children like you.

[didibecomeahero.livejournal.com]

I got killed here too. Here, or at home, I'm still not strong enough to protect anyone.

[Not his friends. Not the children. Not even himself. What kind of Hero could he ever hope to be? There goes his dream, out the window.]

[23smallwishes.livejournal.com]

What if... people don't want you as a hero? What if they just want you as who you are? Just Zack?

[didibecomeahero.livejournal.com]

..Why?

[Even if he usually acts cheerful around people, he's had very little self worth ever since getting killed by Sephiroth.]

[23smallwishes.livejournal.com]

Not everyone needs a hero, Zack. Maybe they just need someone to be there for them.

[didibecomeahero.livejournal.com]

[....He, probably needs a little time to think about that. But she makes a very good point.]

[23smallwishes.livejournal.com]

Sometimes, maybe it's better if we didn't have them. I'm not saying they're bad but... if there were heroes, how would people solve their own problems? They'll just depend on the heroes. If that time comes that the hero is gone, they'll have no one.

... and while we're at it, who's going to help heroes?

[didibecomeahero.livejournal.com]

[...She sure is giving him a lot to think about. She's making him question everything his life has been.]

...

[23smallwishes.livejournal.com]

Just think about it, okay, Zack?

[didibecomeahero.livejournal.com]

[...Nods.]

Yeah.

...Thanks, Aerith.