hey lithyyyyyy (and anyone else who wants to bother her, of course- she left her door open)

[lightning-larx.livejournal.com]

[It's been one of those days.

Akane's taking this whole "terrible twos" thing seriously, for starters, even though her birthday was only a few days ago; screaming tantrums complete with throwing toys at mommy and setting things on fire are the best way to start the day off, aren't they?

Then she tried to visit the simulation room (to see if she could cook up something that would calm kiddo down, since of course she can't do anything she really wants to with Akane present) and it had switched places with the ball pit.

Then there were the Heartless in the closet.

To top it all off, she feels a bit like a cold's coming on.

And now she's just trying to read, dammit, and Tybalt keeps getting in between her and the book.]

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[lostmycause.livejournal.com]

...

[sighs]

It's just... Old stuff. You know...

[lightning-larx.livejournal.com]

Can't be any dumber than mine.

[Tybalt jumps back up onto the bed and headbutts Axel. Heeey, why is his human getting attention and not him. >:]

[lostmycause.livejournal.com]

[sighs and picks up Tybalt, carefully, no claws plz, and sets him on his stomach so he can pet him]

I guess... I really don't want to talk about it right now, okay?

[lightning-larx.livejournal.com]

... I'll tell you about mine?

[Tybalt settles down, purring. Hope you weren't planning to move, Axel, because this cat is damn well making himself comfortable.]

[lostmycause.livejournal.com]

[Well. He can see he's not getting out of this.]

It's... Usually about the times when I've died... Y'know, because of Saix.

[lightning-larx.livejournal.com]

[scritches Tybalt behind the ears]

Yeah. I get those too.

[She's woken up screaming at least once from memories of the darkness and hands and being eaten alive.]

[lostmycause.livejournal.com]

And... Nn. [shakes his head, draping his forearm over his eyes] Just. The... Other stuff. Like... When I... Killed Roxas--...

[lightning-larx.livejournal.com]

Guessed it was something like that.

[strokes his cheek]

Sometimes I'm drowning, or strangling in Marluxia's damn vines...

[lostmycause.livejournal.com]

... We've been through a lot of shit, haven't we? [ignore how his voice just cracked.]

[lightning-larx.livejournal.com]

[ugh, now she's imagining the sort of scenario she just mentioned. She can remember all too clearly, Red holding her down and choking her until she blacked out and she was so sure she was going to die-

Sorry, Tybalt, you're going to have to move because Larxene is trying to pull Axel up. She needs to It looks like he needs to be held for a bit.]

[lostmycause.livejournal.com]

[Sorry Tybalt. He half-turns to curl an arm around her, nuzzling his face in against her neck and hugging her quietly.]

[lightning-larx.livejournal.com]

[The offended cat slinks off silently.]

Don't let it break you.

[lostmycause.livejournal.com]

[weak little laugh]

Sh-shoulda told me that 17 years ago.

[lightning-larx.livejournal.com]

[hearing that hurts, more than she expected it to, and she holds him a little tighter, rubbing his back over the scars.]

Like you'd have listened.

[lostmycause.livejournal.com]

[tries to swallow back the lump in his throat]

Mm, probably not, I used to be stubborn.

[lightning-larx.livejournal.com]

[for a minute she says nothing]

At least you have me now.

[lostmycause.livejournal.com]

[okay, that gets a genuine little laugh out of him]

You gonna be stubborn for me now?

[lightning-larx.livejournal.com]

When am I anything but?

[kisses his nose]

[lostmycause.livejournal.com]

Mm... [Goes back to resting against her, cheek on her shoulder, taking a deep breath and letting it out slow, a small tremor in his exhale.]

[lightning-larx.livejournal.com]

[resumes rubbing his back]

Wanna know the weirdest nightmare I've had?

[lostmycause.livejournal.com]

Hm? [looks at her curiously]

[lightning-larx.livejournal.com]

I was pregnant again, right? Nightmare material all on its own, seriously.

[Actually, it's kind of funny now, when she's fully awake.]

[lostmycause.livejournal.com]

Right...

[lightning-larx.livejournal.com]

I don't remember that clearly but it was a lesser Nobody or something. A monster.

[Forget funny, the thought of it's squicking her out a little now. It doesn't help that she was scared that would actually happen back when she had Akane.]

[lostmycause.livejournal.com]

... [makes a face]

That's... Disturbing.