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[It's been a while since this Namine has been seen out of her room for more than five minutes, especially later in the day, but she's been improving, and today she's curled up on the couch, reading a book. She's got a few snacks with her too so she doesn't have to get up if she gets hungry, so it seems she's actually planning to stay out a while. And, she might even be alright with some company. Yes. I know. It's about time.]

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[roxasreplica.livejournal.com]

You're here.

[what? he doesn't need very much. and well. he has had plenty of time to think, stuck in the darkness that slowly ate his body. so he has changed some too.]

And I really am sorry. I've been an idiot.

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[Blinks. Does this mean he remembers now? He didn't last time.]

...

[roxasreplica.livejournal.com]

[yeah. he remembers e-everything.]

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[...She's not sure what to say. But, she nods. She, sort of understands. She knows that he loved them, just like he loved her. She just wasn't raised that way.]

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[but still. just... Namine has always been there.]

If you want me to choose, I would choose you. Just so you know it.

I feel guilty now. :<

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[...D-did he really have to say that? It took her a long time to get over everything. To try to move on. She's just not sure anymore.

Bites her lip and glances away a bit.]

...Roxas..I...

D:

[roxasreplica.livejournal.com]

...I... sorry, did I...

[misinterpret everything?]

...here I come after... what, months of absence and just... assume that you've waited. For someone like me.

Everyone was telling me to make her happy again so I tried to make her get over it. :<

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[Oh God she feels horrible now. She doesn't even fight it as she starts to tear up.]

That's not-! I just....

[She feels like such a horrible person. :<

Even though, though it was a long time ago, they did, sort of, break up. He'd told her to try to move on and find someone else. Even if she hadn't been happy about it.]

which was the right thing to do. :x

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[he just shakes his head and t-tries to hold her tighter.]

I'm sorry. This is unfair of me... I shouldn't have said that.

But now I feel bad for Roxas. :<

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[Tries to lean into it. But. Probably just goes through him or something. :<]

'm sorry...

[Probably crying a bit now.]

eh, he'll be fine.

[roxasreplica.livejournal.com]

Shh. I said 'if you want me to choose. If you don't... or if you don't want me to choose you... well. Then I won't.

[tries to wipe her tears away, but obviously can't. this is rather frustating.]

Besides, what good is a boyfriend who can't even touch you?

/hugs him

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[...Reaches up to wipe the tears when he cant. Better?

Breathes a small laugh at that and tries to compose herself again. The crying isn't doing any good, and she doesn't want to make him feel worse.]

...I want you to be happy, Roxas.

[And she just seems to make things complicated for him. :<]

aw <3

[roxasreplica.livejournal.com]

And I want us both to be happy. And if that is together, then great. And if not... then so be it.

[shrugs. nothing quite like a few months of nonstop contemplation to become just a little wiser.]

^^

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[She takes a little while to think about this, then closes her eyes, reaching up again to wipe away the few small tears that had been starting.]

.......We're friends still, right?

[She's not sure if this is asking too much of him. If it would hurt him to be around her after all this.]

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Yes. Always.

[does not seem too upset.]

..Suddenly reminded of the song Big girls dont cry :| Why so putting everything with music, self? XD

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...I'm sorry. I wish I could be more for you.

[But, she cant. She'd started to move on. She cant go back anymore.

...Offers a small smile?]

I'll still be there though. If you need me.

X3

[roxasreplica.livejournal.com]

I understand. I really do. I just... maybe, hoped that thing could be like they were. But... we were never very happy, were we?

/listens to it on repeat XD

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...I think, we were. It's just some, things, got in the way, in the end...

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I learned a lot, at least... so, uhm... thank you?

[looks a little, little bit more tangible. and that caressing of her cheek might very well be just a little easier to feel.]

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[Small smile.]

..Your welcome.

[...Is she just imagining things, or is he easier to see and feel all of a sudden. Slightly confused and curious look.]

[roxasreplica.livejournal.com]

[that's because he's learning to control it.]

So. Enough with the emotional things. How are you doing?

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[Ooh. Cool. ^^]

Not bad. I'm not getting into trouble anymore.

[Though that could be because she wasn't getting out much for a while. Oh well.]

[roxasreplica.livejournal.com]

Good. That's the positive thing about this, too.

[at the cost of not eating, not touching, not being able to move anything.]

If you can't touch me, you can't hurt me.

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I guess so.

[She still feels bad for him. And wishes she could help somehow.]

[roxasreplica.livejournal.com]

So, what are you doing these days?