Ennui.

[endlessxsky.livejournal.com]

[It's been a little more than a month since this Roxas's Sora disappeared, and he appeared in his place here in the Dressing Room. If he's been scarce, it's because the doubles freak him out, and he figures it's better that he lay low, hoping that Sora will reappear and he can go home. Truthfully, he's rather torn: does he really want Sora to come back to a place like this? He can't even feel Sora's heart anymore.

But he misses his home, his lovers and family, the sun and normalcy. Right now, most of all, he misses sleeping in an actual bed rather than the couch he's been occupying in Sora's room. Roxas has gathered up his blankets, stuffed puppies and a big overstuffed paopu fruit pillow, and has slipped into Sora's side of the bed in the bedroom with his headphones on and a long eclectic playlist to occupy his mind. He's also really wishing he hadn't picked up one of those fucking Cadbury eggs.]

[ooc: ITT: Roxas is emotarded]

Comments

[windup-boytoy.livejournal.com]

... I can still apologize. I know you don't want to be here.

[endlessxsky.livejournal.com]

Of course I don't! No one should have to be here.

[windup-boytoy.livejournal.com]

No... but some don't have a choice. And for some, this place is better than their own worlds.

[endlessxsky.livejournal.com]

Sucks to be them, then. Home for me is better than this pit'o'despair though.

[windup-boytoy.livejournal.com]

I know. You should be home by now. I don't know why you're not. But, hopefully, that time thing will work and no time passed when you get back.

[endlessxsky.livejournal.com]

I can't even feel him anymore. I don't know even if I'll get home.

*he does feel rather guilty for being so selfish*

[windup-boytoy.livejournal.com]

... what do you mean, you can't feel him anymore?

[endlessxsky.livejournal.com]

His Heart. It doesn't... resonate with mine anymore.

[windup-boytoy.livejournal.com]

W-what does that mean? Roxas, is that good or bad? You're supposed to be connected, right?

*good job of throwing him into a panic*

[endlessxsky.livejournal.com]

I don't know! I don't know. I don't have any answers. I don't want to, but it feels... empty. And I don't know if... he's coming back.

[windup-boytoy.livejournal.com]

*........................ his expression just went from panicked to strangely blank*

I see.

[endlessxsky.livejournal.com]

*he's unfortunately very distraught and tired, and he looks away when he sees your expression*

Ri...

[windup-boytoy.livejournal.com]

It's fine. Everything will be fine. I'm sure you'll go home soon.

[endlessxsky.livejournal.com]

If... I go home, then Sora will come back, right?

[windup-boytoy.livejournal.com]

Of course. That's probably how it works. You guys switched. Though you probably won't notice, since we're back home, too, right?

[endlessxsky.livejournal.com]

Ri... I...

*He wants some contact, a hug... anything. He hasn't felt a human touch in over a month, which is contributing to his depression*

[windup-boytoy.livejournal.com]

Don't worry about it, Roxas. I'm sure you'll be home with Axel and Demyx before you know it.

*how about a pat on the shoulder? does that work?*

[endlessxsky.livejournal.com]

*that will work, though he can tell you're faking out on him*

... I hope so. I know you'd... rather see Sora than me, too.

[windup-boytoy.livejournal.com]

... no.

[endlessxsky.livejournal.com]

*that gets a confused look out of him*

... why?

[windup-boytoy.livejournal.com]

... because Sora is home. He's happy there. It would be better if you were home too, though.

[endlessxsky.livejournal.com]

Isn't it better if we're all together, anyway? Sora adores you. His Heart told me so.

[windup-boytoy.livejournal.com]

*that makes him feel happy, knowing that little tidbit*

... yes. But I'm home too, right? Sora wouldn't even miss me. Maybe it's better that way.

[endlessxsky.livejournal.com]

... but it's totally different back home. Sora misses you because you're never around, and he and Riku are totally doing their couple thing, while you and Namine do yours. It's not like it is here, where you two share a bed and... raise a child which is still freaking me out, by the way.

[windup-boytoy.livejournal.com]

... why would 'bug freak you out? Is he trying to shake you down for extra candy or soda?