heartsick

[daddyhasagun.livejournal.com]

[Kira is curled up on this corner of a couch, idly flipping through a fashion magazine, though she normally doesn't act this lazy. Anyone who looks at her closely might notice the paleness of her skin and the shadows under her eyes, but she expertly covered those little signs under her makeup. However, less easy to hide is the way she is wearing one of her brother's larger shirts (not black), whose sleeves come down to cover her hands. If you think she looks ill, you would be pretty close to the mark.]

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[daddyhasagun.livejournal.com]

[congratulations, she's just burst into tears, dropping all the clothes she had in her hands on the floor]

[regalheart]

[what no oh god what. pulls her into a proper hug, closing his eyes.]

I'm sorry, Kira. I didn't mean to make you cry.

[daddyhasagun.livejournal.com]

[she clings to you as she sobs and it's probably not a pretty sight, since any light that filled her while she was happy has disappeared again]

I-I'm s-sorry!

[regalheart]

What on earth are you apologizing for?

[he knows how that works, and just holds her close, trying to calm her down.]

[daddyhasagun.livejournal.com]

B-because! Because... I-I'm a bother! No one likes me around!

[she's going to make your shirt very wet :/]

[regalheart]

[designer shirts are best wet, what are you talking about.]

Oh, Kira, that's not true at all! You're not a bother, and everyone who knows you loves you dearly. It's true that sometimes you get too enthusiastic about making people fashionable when they don't really care to be, but that doesn't mean we dislike you. Your enthusiasm is part of who you are, part of what makes you the person we care about.

[daddyhasagun.livejournal.com]

[she shakes her head in denial, since she's like her daddy when she has herself convinced of something]

Y-you probably just don't want me to whine and Rikka calls me a crybaby and I hardly see him and I miss Mama and Daddy and Aden and i-it's so cold...

[regalheart]

You could whine at me every day for the rest of our lives and you'd still be my pretty lady. Rikka's probably trying to act like nothing's wrong, and you know how he gets when he's down. Of course he's going to go missing. And... I'm sorry your parents aren't here. I'm so sorry you have to be here without them and everyone else from our time.

[pets her hair gently, still hugging her.]

[daddyhasagun.livejournal.com]

[she'll be clinging on you because at least you're familiar to her; her sobbing has mostly stopped though her face is wet and she's niffling]

I... I dunno how to stop being cold, Uncle Kai...

[regalheart]

You're used to being surrounded by people who you love and who love you, and now the number of people like that has drastically decreased... so it's cold, in your heart, isn't it.

[he won't stop hugging her anytime soon, though he might loosen it a bit to wipe at her face.]

I know you're probably reluctant, even as outgoing as you are, and it won't be the same... but friends warm the heart, too. Don't be afraid to make them, alright? I know it's not the same as having your parents around, but me and Axel will be here for you whenever you need us. And... try to maybe speak with Rikka, as serious as you can about this. Don't be scared he'll call you names or anything, because even if he does... well, he does that anyway, doesn't he? As much as you two fight, you're still siblings. If you're honest and try not to get angry at him, maybe he'll understand. And I know it's not just your fault you guys fight. You egg each other on, whether it's intentional or not.

[daddyhasagun.livejournal.com]

[she sniffles more, but lets you wipe her face, still looking unhappy but less confused since you seem to understand, since she can't explain it well herself]

R-Rikka thinks we should keep to ourselves. He even wants me to make Belphy go away.

[regalheart]

Because you shouldn't change anything, right?

[brushes some of her hair back.]

Time is always changing, Kira. Even by being here things are changing. It may not be by much, but it's true.

[daddyhasagun.livejournal.com]

[sniffcling ;;]

But... but it's still bad for Mama and Daddy to know we're here.

[regalheart]

Your mama's smart, and he knows he can't go see you, sweetheart. Just because you have to avoid some people doesn't mean you can't do anything. You're still allowed to make friends and the like.

[daddyhasagun.livejournal.com]

But what if everyone I meet is all people I already know? Like you and Uncle Axel... and Auntie Piku-pie...

[regalheart]

Then you're definitely not getting out enough.

[slight teasing there, though he's still speaking pretty soft and gentle.]

[daddyhasagun.livejournal.com]

[she'll be clingy anyway sorry]

But Daddy and Mama already know so many people. Especially Daddy.

[regalheart]

I know they do. But that doesn't mean you can't get to know them, too! There have been tons of "future kids" around in the years I've been here. Your parents would be so worried if they saw their baby girl losing her shine like this, and not making friends.

[daddyhasagun.livejournal.com]

But what if no one likes me?

[regalheart]

How could no one like you?

[daddyhasagun.livejournal.com]

[she just shrugs a little; obviously it's somewhat hard for her to make friends outside of 'family']

[regalheart]

You shouldn't think so lowly of yourself, Kira.

[ruffles her hair a bit.]

I'm sure you could make friends really easily.

[daddyhasagun.livejournal.com]

You really think so?

[regalheart]

Yeah, I really think so.

[daddyhasagun.livejournal.com]

... maybe then.