The truth is out there and it hurts

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[Namine was just hiding out in the library, curled up in a chair in a more hidden area, reading a book, when the rooms suddenly filled with smoke.

She drops the book into her lap as she's reduced to coughing into her hand.]

W-what?

Comments

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B-but...He didn't. So, p-please. D-dont be upset.

[She hates this. Why did she say that? How could she say that??? She never wanted him to know.]

[roxasreplica.livejournal.com]

How can I not be upset?! T-that guy is trying to take everything away from me...

*Is late*

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[She just looks down at the ground.]

...I'm sorry.

*was early*

[roxasreplica.livejournal.com]

[he curls up in the chair, not answering.]

*Was playing Kingdom Hearts II again and lost track of the time. ^^; *

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[And now she doesn't know what to do. All she knows is that Roxas is upset and it's all her fault.]

*has been looking through all 358/2 Days cutscenes on youtube*

[roxasreplica.livejournal.com]

[it's not her fault and it never was her fault and--

he s-sighs.]

Nothing to do about it now... right?

Cool!....Great. Now I wanna make a new character. XD I really need to stop that. ^^;

[saphire-wave.livejournal.com]

[S-shrugs.]

D-dunno.

XD

[roxasreplica.livejournal.com]

Unless we built a time machine. And somehow I doubt that's a good idea.

[s-smiles. see? it's a joke!]

^^;

[saphire-wave.livejournal.com]

[Well she actually chuckles a bit at that! So, he cheered her up a little bit!]

[roxasreplica.livejournal.com]

[that's good. he relaxes a little, but is still upset. very, very upset. but he's getting better at hiding it. or would be, if he hadn't been affected by the truth gas.

well, as long as she doesn't ask about it.]

[saphire-wave.livejournal.com]

[She wont. She doesn't even want to think about this ever again. Sure, she knows that that's just running away, but at the moment, she doesn't care. Too much bad stuff has happened for her to handle very well.]

[roxasreplica.livejournal.com]

[and it never would have happened had she never met him.

and since Roxas is starting to figure out that the gas has something to do with his sudden inability to keep quiet, he's planning on exploiting it.]

Namine... tell me... am I really not a replacement for you?

[saphire-wave.livejournal.com]

[She would be very upset if he said that.

She blinks, then just looks hurt again.]

No. You're not. Of course you're not. I wouldn't do that!

[She looks away. He just hurt her feelings by the way.]

[roxasreplica.livejournal.com]

[h-he breathes a sigh of relief. he wouldn't blame her if he was. that would have just been... human, he supposes. not that he'd really know.]

I'm sorry for pressing the issue. It's just... that's what I'm meant to be.

[saphire-wave.livejournal.com]

[She turns back to look at him, still looking rather upset.]

What you're meant to be, huh? The only one who can really decide that is you.

[So there.]

[roxasreplica.livejournal.com]

[b-blinks at that.]

I guess... but that was what I was made to be.

[saphire-wave.livejournal.com]

Who cares? He threw you into Darkness! I dont think his opinion really matters anymore! You're here. You're alive. And you, are the only one who can decide if you're gonna keep living your life by what he said you were supposed to be!

[No. This hasn't been bugging her for a while. What gave you that idea?]

[roxasreplica.livejournal.com]

...of course his opinion matters, Namine. He was the only one I knew for more than half my life! And I know he wasn't nice, wasn't caring, wasn't good to me... but he's still the reason I even exist. The reason I'm here at all! But no, I'm not going to live up to his expectations. But he still means a lot to me, both bad and good.

[he's been thinking a lot too.]

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[That, kinda, shuts her up. She looks away, not sure what to say anymore.]

...I'm sorry.

[roxasreplica.livejournal.com]

[...sighs.]

I'm sorry too. I don't blame you for not liking him. I don't really like him either. It's just... complicated.

[saphire-wave.livejournal.com]

[...Nods.]

[roxasreplica.livejournal.com]

[and the smile fades again. he's starting to get really sick of this "tell the truth the whole truth and nothing but the truth"-thing.]

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[Speaking of that, Namine's starting to think that maybe she should take advantage of it too...]

...Roxas?

[roxasreplica.livejournal.com]

Yes?

[did he just tense up a little? yes he did. because he's so very sure he knows what that smoke did to them now.]

[saphire-wave.livejournal.com]

[She seems a little unsure about whether or not she wants to ask this. Or, at least unsure of how to ask.]

...How..Uh, I mean...

[She bites her lip a little, glancing away.]

...What am I to you? I mean, was I, really the person you wanted to be with, or...