How Convoluted..

[iwuzansem.livejournal.com]

[If you pass down this hall in particular, you might hear two people arguing. The door was just barely cracked, but enough to see inside. "Ansem" pacing back and forward in front of a tall mirror, and Xehanorts Heartless in said mirror... How convoluted. ]

If you would just...let me in again, you will see that life would be much easier for you, Riku.

Just...Shut up! 

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[iwuzansem.livejournal.com]

Sure...

[ He sort of sits up on his own now, rubbing his head. ]

..You know, I think Ansem is lonely. [Totally random subject change, but after that gay speech you gave him, it got him thinking. ]

I don't need him... He needs..no, wants me. It's sort of..sad.

[windup-boytoy.livejournal.com]

Don't believe him or feel pity for Ansem. He deserves everything he gets. I might get lonely too, but that doesn't mean that I'm trying to drag everything to Kingdom Hearts.

[iwuzansem.livejournal.com]

I know... I have no pity for him...

[Oh hai look, he is standing up now. ]

Ansem needs me... I realize this now. And because he needs me, I can control him. The cats out of the bag now... And he knows it. Ansem belongs to me...

[He wanted to be sure Ansem could hear him. ]

[windup-boytoy.livejournal.com]

... you know, it's kind of creepy when you put it in those words.

[iwuzansem.livejournal.com]

Heh... I think there might be more going on than what is obvious to you.

[It was unsettling... But, he meant it. And he was sticking with that mind set. ]

Ansem has thrived on my need to be accepted.. He knows what makes me weak.. But I know what makes him weak too.. Like I said, and like he keeps telling me, Ansem and I are not that different. The only difference now is, I understand my power over him. Call me cruel if you want.. But I am just going to think of it as a constant game of King of the Mountain. It's my turn now.

[Hey, look he is puffing up and stuff now. ]

[windup-boytoy.livejournal.com]

*frowns a bit because that's sort of fucked up but as long as you don't go nuts from it, it's better than Ansem having control*

As long as you can keep a hold of yourself, it seems to be okay.

[iwuzansem.livejournal.com]

What's the matter? Feeling bad for Ansem now?

[He just chuckles, waving his hand at the thought... Well, he seems to be better? Maybe? ]

He's going to pay for what he did to Sora..and anyone else I've hurt.

[windup-boytoy.livejournal.com]

Of course I don't feel bad for him. I'm just worried the power might go to your head. It's a fine line, to embrace the Darkness, and to have it take you over completely.

[iwuzansem.livejournal.com]

I'm not afraid of the Darkness..

[He's fine. He's just being a jerk now because he feels like he can. It means he likes you. :D ]

Are you, Ri?

[windup-boytoy.livejournal.com]

*cocky is fine, but asshole is not*

Of course I'm not. But I wasn't lying to Ansem either.

[iwuzansem.livejournal.com]

[It is a very fine line, and Riku likely crossed it. But, well, at least he isn't agnsting on you anymore..yey? :D ]

I will admit that I will likely need help... But I think it needed to start with me first... Keep me in check, yeah? [Hay thar friendly handshake. ]

[windup-boytoy.livejournal.com]

*he doesn't mind angsty Rikus*

I'll keep an eye on you. I don't want Ansem suddenly busting out just because you're too full of yourself to notice it.

*looks at your hand, then gives you a hug again*

[iwuzansem.livejournal.com]

...

[Lets you hug, but he isn't really hugging back. ]

What is it with you acting so huggy? I mean, being gay is one thing, acting gay is another.

[Shoves you, somewhat playfully. ]

[windup-boytoy.livejournal.com]

*blinks, then frowns and smacks your arm :/*

Well, if you don't like hugs then you don't get any. I'm surrounded by kids most of the time, so I'm used to hugs more than anything else.

[iwuzansem.livejournal.com]

[But..He's not a kid... ]

I'm just playing with you, gees. You certainly are sensitive. I am beginning to wonder who tops between the two of you.

[Ok, now he is just testing the waters. If he gets a blade through his chest, he knows it went too far >> ]

[windup-boytoy.livejournal.com]

*flails and sputters*

Who?! ISN'T IT OBVIOUS THAT I TOP MOST OF THE TIME?! SORA IS TOTALLY THE GIRLIER ONE HE WEARS PANTIES.

[iwuzansem.livejournal.com]

Most of the time? MOST?

[He is laughing and pointing at you now. Apparently he can't graps the concept of himself ever letting Sora...]

[windup-boytoy.livejournal.com]

*fumes and looks away*

I'm not selfish. Besides, I happen to like to be dominated. Sora doesn't do it often, my Riku usually did, but he's not here.

[iwuzansem.livejournal.com]

What are you trying to say, Ri... Need a Riku to crack a whip at you?

[He sort of flexes at you.. Yeeeah, Riku is hot. This might be the moment where you realize angsty bi-polar Riku is probably better to be around than 'I'm sexy, it's ok to want me because i am totally strong and..perfect and stuff' Riku. :| ]

[windup-boytoy.livejournal.com]

*he frowns at you, crossing his arms over his chest because you're heading into dangerous territory*

No. What I need is someone I trust implicitly and care for deeply to understand my needs. That's what my Riku and Sora understand about me.

[iwuzansem.livejournal.com]

I'm just playing... I guess I am actually pretty envious of you. It seems like you really care about them, and they care about you.

[Envious? Try jealous.. ]

[windup-boytoy.livejournal.com]

Of course I care about them, and my Namine, too. They're my everything and I'm lucky they've accepted me. You're not the only one who's done terrible things... or had terrible things happen to you.

*looks away, frowning*

[iwuzansem.livejournal.com]

[He keeps forgetting where he is. He doesn't know anything about..anyone, actually. Suddenly, his problems seemed moot. But, he wasn't going to second guess them. He knew what his problem was, and lowering his guard is what Ansem was waiting for. He just puffed up again, walking right up to you, and gave you a hug this time. ]

I'm sorry.

[windup-boytoy.livejournal.com]

*is actually surprised by the hug but doesn't shove you off or anything*

... don't be. It's not your fault. And I try not to let my past affect my future.

*that's a complete lie, but he will never admit otherwise*

[iwuzansem.livejournal.com]

... I guess we are both a little screwed up, huh?

[Understatement of the century.. But Riku thinks you are a lot more in control and mentally stronger. ]