no chance, no way

[silverent.livejournal.com]

[he actually looks pretty content for once, flipping through an old - upside down - comic book with a pair of headphones sitting comfortably on his ears.

but looks aren't everything.]

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[ixero.livejournal.com]

[he doesn't care anymore, either he's dragging Riku around to face him or he's climbing right across his lap so he can press his face to his chest.]

Sorry I'm taking this out on you. You can rest assured it won't ever happen again, though.

[he whispers, trying not to heave breaths while tears stream down his cheeks.]

[silverent.livejournal.com]

Roxas, it's.. it's okay.

[one of his hands comes to rest against the top of Roxas' head, sliding down the back until his palm rests flat between the blond's shoulder blades. from there, he sighs, and curls his arm around Roxas' shoulders, tipping his head down to rest his chin against his step-brother's head.]

[ixero.livejournal.com]

It's so frustrating. These people.. I fucking hate seeing another me happier than I am. I mean just.. fuck, it's not fair. And I see them with Soras and Axels and ... Rikus, and it's just ...

[he really doesn't get how people can just fall into step with this place like it's normal. meet someone with the face of their best friend and fall in love with them like it's nothing. or even date someone who looks exactly like themselves.]

[silverent.livejournal.com]

.. now you know why I 'hide'. I fixed up my room to be like my old one. If I don't leave, it's almost like home...

[ixero.livejournal.com]

Can I stay with you? I won't piss you off ...

[takes a deep breath, sniffing and rubbing at his eyes again.]

shit ... got your stupid shirt soaked ...

[silverent.livejournal.com]

[strangely - or perhaps not-so-strangely - he doesn't hesitate to answer.]

It's just a shirt. You can stay.

[and if you're quick enough, you might be able to catch that smile of his before it disappears.]

[ixero.livejournal.com]

[pulls back, trying his best to keep his dignity and shove himself off of him and to part of the couch where he isn't so close.]

Right. Thanks.

[he murmurs, suddenly curt with his head bowed.]

[silverent.livejournal.com]

[Riku just laughs quietly and shakes his head, getting to his feet.]

..I'm going to change into a shirt that's not-so-full of your snot. You know how to find my room?

[..it's obvious he's teasing by the way the corner of his mouth twitches with a suppressed smile.]

[ixero.livejournal.com]

[looks up at him.]

.. yeah.

[he has to sigh before he attempts a smile, but it works. it's nowhere near as radiant as Sora's, but he'll have to practice for that one.]