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Heh...

So what kind of place is this? It doesn't look like any part of the Castle I've ever been to.

[ooc: HEY GIRLYKU YOUR REPLICA IS HERE]

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Besides the obvious girl and boy thing. You're so prickly, Riku-pi. But after everything, Riku... didn't have an easy time of it.

*looks concerned about that*

[... headtilt.]

What's that supposed to mean?

*frowns a little, crossing his arms over his chest as he thinks*

... it wasn't good for Riku. Peace. He... started having screaming nightmares about his time in the Dark. It got to the point where... he couldn't sleep without a nightmare unless he was sleeping with someone else in the bed, like Sora.

It's one of the reasons why I shared the same bed with Riku for nearly a year before I got my own room. But... my presence didn't always work, and I've had to wake Riku up out of it more than once.

[ouch. also frowning now, looking off.]

I don't blame him. But I guess... he got lucky, to have you guys.

Yeah... he'd have... waking dreams, I guess. He'd sleepwalk and talk to the King, like he was still trapped behind The Door.

*smiles a little*

But yeah, it's lucky he has Sora. Sora always manages to calm him down from things.

[shakes her head; bad memory city.]

Soras seem to be good at that sort of thing.

*oops, he realizes that and feels bad for accidentally jarring your memories*

Yeah, I think Soras can do anything. And they give great hugs.

[aw, no biggie, Ri.]

Yeah, there's practically nothing they can't do. ...Including hugs.

*well, he doesn't want you to be all girlyemoku or anything*

I'm just glad my Sora is here with me now, but I'm worried about Riku. We've left him alone.

[that wouldn't be normal?]

... Some people show up without any time passing between them. And then they get sent back at the exact moment they disappeared. I'm kind of relying on that theory, myself.

*well, you're not emo ALL the time?*

Oh! Really?! I... I can tell Sora that then. He'll be relieved. And Riku won't have to lose sleep.

[true, true...]

Hope for the best, I guess. I know for a fact that it's happened in some cases.

*he looks quite relieved and happy to hear that, the little frownline disappearing from between his brows*

That's good. I don't want Riku to suffer because of something I did...

[small, small smile-- then a frown.]

Why would it be your fault?

*congratulations, you're about to be subjected to his fucked up mental programming*

Why wouldn't it be? Things are always my fault.

[...blinks at him.]

Not quite.

*he's being very sincere, since he knows he's right*

No, you don't understand. Everything really is all my fault. Things go wrong all the time because of what I did, or what I didn't do. If... if I was better, I wouldn't upset everyone all the time.

I'm glad, really glad that my Sora is here now. He can tell me if I'm doing something wrong.

[not approving of your attitude over here.]

I understand perfectly. I'm not saying you don't make mistakes, but I've ever seen you do anything bad.

I... get confused about that, too. I usually don't know when I've done something wrong until after, when I see that I've upset Namine, or Sora, or Riku. Then I know I've done something wrong.

But Sora is very kind, and doesn't like to punish me for my mistakes. Riku, too. But I know when I've done something wrong and so I should punish myself. I should be better, and know the rules, so I don't break them anymore.

*he probably said all that in a disturbing tone of voice, almost mechanical*

[she looks... yeah, definitely a bit disturbed by that tone and wording, and tilts her head back to look at him.]

Being so strict with yourself can be a mistake too, Ri.

*he doesn't seem to realize that he's disturbing you, since this mode of thought is normal for him*

I have to be strict with myself. I don't want to cause the ones I cherish pain. If I don't learn, I won't be Real like them. Once I'm Real, I'll understand everything and won't make anyone sad.

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