there's never enough.

[chosen-key.livejournal.com]

[quiet, and he's staring at the wall of books for a few minutes before flopping down on a large couch. ah, the Adventures of Huckleberry Finn. now this is a book he could get into, and he's just. oh, wait, he's listening to it on tape. yup, just so he knows no one's sneaking up on... him. although the voice might drain anyone else out.]

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[jailedbait.livejournal.com]

[... slow, steady, breathe.]

... Sora?

[chosen-key.livejournal.com]

[soundless glance over to him, and he beams, holding up the book as the voice narrates.]

F-found a c-c-cassette t-tape with i-it.

[jailedbait.livejournal.com]

[w-..what was he doing again?]

You did?..

[smiles a little, moving closer.]

[chosen-key.livejournal.com]

[nods, and his fingertips go over Roxas' wrist.]

D-did you t-t-tell h-him yet?

[jailedbait.livejournal.com]

[suddenly, he feels so inflated with guilt he's floating.]

S-Sora..

[did he see? how could he tell? was he really that obvious?]

[chosen-key.livejournal.com]

[he just shakes his head and smiles.]

... s'fine. It's n-n-not h-hard to t-tell. G-glad you're h-happy with h-him.

[a firm nod. that smile won't go away, and it's saying that he understands, he really does, even as his hands shake slightly.]

[jailedbait.livejournal.com]

[five years ago, five years ago, five years ago the disappointment, the tears, the hurt, why did he have to keep breaking them? why, why?]

S-stop. Stop.

[god damnit. why does this have to be so hard. it's like the world is fine and natural when Sora's not around, but the minute he looks into those eyes that mirror nothing but the purity his lack, everything falls out of order again. he can't do this. he's better off dead.]

[chosen-key.livejournal.com]

[he looks startled, his fingertips going into a full hand grasping his. warm, comforting.]

Wh-what?

[the tape's off, he's not listening.]

[jailedbait.livejournal.com]

I never stopped loving you. I never will. I just.. I really like him, too. This is so..

[bad, wrong, shitty, he should be kicked and burned for throwing away such a beautiful soul that's never done him any wrong.]

You're so beautiful. And cute, and admirable, I wish I could have both of you, but..

[chosen-key.livejournal.com]

[a shake of his head. he finishes his sentence.]

... l-love doesn't w-w-work like th-that. It's o-okay.

[a light squeeze of his bandaid-covered fingers.]

R-really. I'm g-glad I e-e-even g-got a l-little t-time with you.

[dominatingly.livejournal.com]

[was thumbling through a book, but decides he might just set it on Sora's head. ah, there we are. nice look for him]

[chosen-key.livejournal.com]

[... pouting.]

[dominatingly.livejournal.com]

...That's not working on me this time.

[chosen-key.livejournal.com]

[a sigh. he looks a little too mellow.]

[dominatingly.livejournal.com]

[frown. he's been around a Sora long enough to know that's a bad sign]

What's wrong?

[chosen-key.livejournal.com]

[a blink. he waves a hand.]

Wh-what'dyou m-mean?

[dominatingly.livejournal.com]

That's not a good expression on Soras. I've picked up on that much.

[chosen-key.livejournal.com]

[he stretches his arms above his head and yawns.]

M'tired.

[dominatingly.livejournal.com]

[pokes his stomach right in the middle of that stretch-yawn]

I'm not buying that.

[melodybot.livejournal.com]

You should play music instead, Me.

[blck-drgn-rdr.livejournal.com]

[He picked a book from the shelves, thought it'd look good and ambled towards the free space near Sora.]

Didn't realize that the library had audio-books. What are you listening to?

[chosen-key.livejournal.com]

[glances over at him.]

I h-haven't r-read this b-b-book in a l-long t-time...

[chosen-key.livejournal.com]

H-huckleberry Finn.

[smiles over at him, hearing the change of a chapter.]

[chosen-key.livejournal.com]

[kjdls;. gives a quiet whimper, and waves his hand away.]

F-fine. R-really.

[dominatingly.livejournal.com]

Not convinced, but I'm not asking what it is.

[picks the book up and plops in a chair]

So what're you listening to?