things I almost remember

[allthelightleft.livejournal.com]

[Huddled together with some Struggle supplies, there's a Namine sitting on the floor. She's not sketching though.

If one would approach, they'd see she's actually making a star charm. It's not the golden one in Castle Oblivion. On the contrary, there's a blue shell charm already on her lap, something a few people in this dressing room would find familiar. There are broken pieces of a green and orange one next to her, and the one she's making is yellow.

Mostly she's making it just because there's a part of her that wants to.]

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[erasedwind.livejournal.com]

That's okay. Just do what you have to...

[allthelightleft.livejournal.com]

[Tampering again then.]

[erasedwind.livejournal.com]

[...Headclutch get. His memory's already a trainwreck as it is, but he'll just...grin and bear it that's a lad.]

[allthelightleft.livejournal.com]

[Really, really does not like doing this to him. Uh. Here, have a few Days, Xion-free memories.]

[erasedwind.livejournal.com]

[Xion free meaning full of holes. ...He stops for a second.]

... That's really weird.

[allthelightleft.livejournal.com]

You okay?

[Worried. >:]

[erasedwind.livejournal.com]

I'm fine. It's just... This'll sound crazy, but it feels like there's something missing.

[allthelightleft.livejournal.com]

[...it sucks being the only one who remembers everything.]

I'm sorry. I can't do anything about that.

[erasedwind.livejournal.com]

It's okay. I just don't get it...

[He feels kinda dizzy, anyway.]

Is there more?

[allthelightleft.livejournal.com]

Maybe that's enough, for now.

[Is worried, okay. She doesn't want to reset your memories or something by accident >:]

[erasedwind.livejournal.com]

I guess it's a start.

[Hm. He'll pick up that shell now.]

[allthelightleft.livejournal.com]

...actually, I don't want to use my powers anymore. I feel like they're doing more harm than good.

[erasedwind.livejournal.com]

Maybe it's not the power so much as how you use them.

Like... there could be someone who forgot everything, but that power of yours could really help them.

[allthelightleft.livejournal.com]

There are some things better left unsaid.

Or forgotten.

...sometimes, I wish I can use my own powers on myself.

[erasedwind.livejournal.com]

But what would you do, Namine?

[allthelightleft.livejournal.com]

What do you mean?

[erasedwind.livejournal.com]

Like, what you'd forget if you could.

[allthelightleft.livejournal.com]

...

[A sad smile, her eyes going from the shell he's holding, to the fragments of the orange and green charms on the floor.]

... a lot.

[erasedwind.livejournal.com]

Are your memories really that bad?

[allthelightleft.livejournal.com]

You're lucky, Roxas. You have real friends. All I ever been exposed to since I existed were lies.

[Sighs a bit, then works on cleaning up the shells scattered all around.]

[erasedwind.livejournal.com]

But the town's just one of DiZ's creations, isn't it? They're still real to me, but...

[And the few memories she just gave him, hm.]

And besides that there was just Axel, right? Axel and...

[Nothing.]

No, just him. Everything else is from his memories.

[allthelightleft.livejournal.com]

Axel is still there. You still have a friend. I have no one.

You're luckier still.

[Goes back to cleaning up, setting the finished charm on top of a box of Struggle orbs.]

[erasedwind.livejournal.com]

No, wait... That's not right.

[frooown]

We're friends, aren't we?

[allthelightleft.livejournal.com]

[Stops at that, looking at him, slightly caught off guard. She's so used to thinking she's alone, she kind of thought he wouldn't want to be >:]

... you... really think so?

[erasedwind.livejournal.com]

I know so.

[Why so shocked? He tries to crack a smile.]

Why do you sound so surprised?