kingdomdressing | The truth is out there and it hurts

[She seems a little unsure about whether or not she wants to ask this. Or, at least unsure of how to ask.]

...How..Uh, I mean...

[She bites her lip a little, glancing away.]

...What am I to you? I mean, was I, really the person you wanted to be with, or...

What you... Namine, you're my girlfriend. And yes, I wanted to be with you.

[which is the truth. she should take note of the way he says it, though.]

[She does take note of it. And she's working very hard to figure out how to better ask her question.]

...Is that...Still what you want though?

Yes. I still want to be with you. I like you a lot.

[almost, but not quite there...]

And. Is there...

[She pauses. Does she, really want to ask this?]

...Is there, someone else, that you want to be with?

[!!!
he puts his hand over his mouth to muffle the words coming out. which should be more than enough to confirm her suspicions.]

[Yup. Pretty much. She bites her lip, trying so hard to stay calm and in control. Though that might not last very long.

...So, his Gemini had been telling the truth about that...]

...Is it that Saix?

[he puts the other hand over his mouth and then needs to hold his head still to keep from nodding. but he lets through a sentence that might counter his obvious distress.]

He said we're brothers!

[Well, that doesn't change the fact that Roxas wants to be with him. Oh, she just remembered something else his Gemini had said.]

And what about Riku?

[She cant stop now. She just wants the truth. Even if it hurts her.]

[he looks away. and this hurts her? there's a reason he's never told her this, and that's because she's get hurt.]

I don't know anymore. I really really liked him before but he's been ignoring me and avoiding me so much so I don't k-know.

[he bites back a sob. stupid Riku never telling him what's wrong...]

[Hey, she's actually got a reason for this. Something Geminixas said, has really been bugging her. He'll find out soon enough.]

T-there's probably a reason f-for that... Depression, maybe...

[Aaaaaaand...Here we go...]

Riku, and Saix, they're strong. Right?

[and he's really caught off guard by that. why would she... oh well. he sees no reason not to tell her this, so...]

Yes. They're really really strong. Riku was the one that taught me how to fight, remember?

Which means, they'd be able to, protect you. If something bad happened.

[Unlike her. Who is weak. Who cant help with anything. They'd be reliable.]

Yes. I guess...

[oh. that's why she asked... now, think of something smart to say. so she won't feel too useless.]

...but you're the one that's protected me so far.

I haven't done a very good job though.

[She almost spat the sentence out.]

Every time I try to help. I get beaten. Easily. I'm weak. Useless. And...

[Her composure is leaving her fast.]

...And you just end up getting hurt, no matter what I do.

Namine... I'm not with you because of whether or not you protect me. I'm with you because you're nice to me and because you know interesting stuff and because you can play the piano and draw and because your hair is soft and because of everything else that makes you you.

[okay, he's not a poet, but he means it. he wouldn't be able to say it if he didn't.]

But you're not safe with me! The only thing I ever managed to do to help, was give you that necklace. And my Gemini still managed to get that away from you, because she looked like me, and could act like me.

[She's crying now.]

But she can't do that again, can she? She won't imitate that.

[reaches out and carefully touches that small scar on her face.]

[She tenses a little at that, if only because Roxas has barely even looked at the scar. And now he's touching it.]

She can still hurt you. By using me...

[Go on. Try to deny it.]

[he's just at surprised at his own courage as she is, but no time to think about that.]

Yes. She can. So?

I dont want you to get hurt by trying to protect me!

[She can only imagine what would have happened if he'd been there when she was attacked by Saix. Or that Roxas. Or Geminixas.]

And I don't want you to get hurt. But we can't always stop it.

[She doesn't really have anything to say to that. Just, goes back to crying. Though it's not as bad as before.

I'd say that she probably needs a hug right about now.]

[...gives her a very careful hug, then.]

[And she hugs him back, crying onto his shoulder.]

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