kingdomdressing | The truth is out there and it hurts

[She wont. She doesn't even want to think about this ever again. Sure, she knows that that's just running away, but at the moment, she doesn't care. Too much bad stuff has happened for her to handle very well.]

[~~and it never would have happened had she never met him.~~

and since Roxas is starting to figure out that the gas has something to do with his sudden inability to keep quiet, he's planning on exploiting it.]

Namine... tell me... am I really not a replacement for you?

[~~She would be very upset if he said that.~~

She blinks, then just looks hurt again.]

No. You're not. Of course you're not. I wouldn't do that!

[She looks away. He just hurt her feelings by the way.]

[h-he breathes a sigh of relief. he wouldn't blame her if he was. that would have just been... human, he supposes. not that he'd really know.]

I'm sorry for pressing the issue. It's just... that's what I'm meant to be.

[She turns back to look at him, still looking rather upset.]

What you're meant to be, huh? The only one who can really decide that is you.

[So there.]

[b-blinks at that.]

I guess... but that was what I was made to be.

Who cares? He threw you into Darkness! I dont think his opinion really matters anymore! You're here. You're alive. And you, are the only one who can decide if you're gonna keep living your life by what he said you were supposed to be!

[No. This hasn't been bugging her for a while. What gave you that idea?]

...of course his opinion matters, Namine. He was the only one I knew for more than half my life! And I know he wasn't nice, wasn't caring, wasn't good to me... but he's still the reason I even exist. The reason I'm here at all! But no, I'm not going to live up to his expectations. But he still means a lot to me, both bad and good.

[he's been thinking a lot too.]

[That, kinda, shuts her up. She looks away, not sure what to say anymore.]

...I'm sorry.

[...sighs.]

I'm sorry too. I don't blame you for not liking him. I don't really like him either. It's just... complicated.

[...Nods.]

[and the smile fades again. he's starting to get really sick of this "tell the truth the whole truth and nothing but the truth"-thing.]

[Speaking of that, Namine's starting to think that maybe she should take advantage of it too...]

...Roxas?

Yes?

[did he just tense up a little? yes he did. because he's so very sure he knows what that smoke did to them now.]

[She seems a little unsure about whether or not she wants to ask this. Or, at least unsure of how to ask.]

...How..Uh, I mean...

[She bites her lip a little, glancing away.]

...What am I to you? I mean, was I, really the person you wanted to be with, or...

What you... Namine, you're my girlfriend. And yes, I wanted to be with you.

[which is the truth. she should take note of the way he says it, though.]

[She does take note of it. And she's working very hard to figure out how to better ask her question.]

...Is that...Still what you want though?

Yes. I still want to be with you. I like you a lot.

[almost, but not quite there...]

And. Is there...

[She pauses. Does she, really want to ask this?]

...Is there, someone else, that you want to be with?

[!!!
he puts his hand over his mouth to muffle the words coming out. which should be more than enough to confirm her suspicions.]

[Yup. Pretty much. She bites her lip, trying so hard to stay calm and in control. Though that might not last very long.

...So, his Gemini had been telling the truth about that...]

...Is it that Saix?

[he puts the other hand over his mouth and then needs to hold his head still to keep from nodding. but he lets through a sentence that might counter his obvious distress.]

He said we're brothers!

[Well, that doesn't change the fact that Roxas wants to be with him. Oh, she just remembered something else his Gemini had said.]

And what about Riku?

[She cant stop now. She just wants the truth. Even if it hurts her.]

[he looks away. and this hurts her? there's a reason he's never told her this, and that's because she's get hurt.]

I don't know anymore. I really really liked him before but he's been ignoring me and avoiding me so much so I don't k-know.

[he bites back a sob. stupid Riku never telling him what's wrong...]

[Hey, she's actually got a reason for this. Something Geminixas said, has really been bugging her. He'll find out soon enough.]

T-there's probably a reason f-for that... Depression, maybe...

[Aaaaaaand...Here we go...]

Riku, and Saix, they're strong. Right?

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