i'm terrified of these four walls.

[destinedtinsel.livejournal.com]

[it's normally kind of quiet when it's this early, so he's just at a table, eating some toast. normal, normal... but there's something echoing in his ear and he looks back quickly. --there it is again! he can hear it. that voice. he's standing and looking around wildly, most probably knocking things over in his way. he can't see, it's all dark and there's toxic ooze on the floor--]

What--?

[ooc; don't you hate it when you've gone like, five years without the flu and then you get pneumonia? someone's been sane for quite a while and everyone deserves a little outbreak.]

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[jailedbait.livejournal.com]

Why do you have this habit of disappearing.

[he doesn't sound amused, just standing at the foot of the hall, watching.]

[destinedtinsel.livejournal.com]

[don't mind him shivering in place, looking up with a faraway look.]

Roxas--?

[jailedbait.livejournal.com]

I'd say 'the one and only' but that'd be a lie.

[advances.]

[destinedtinsel.livejournal.com]

[stays still, before clumsily stumbling back, eyes tightened shut.]

[jailedbait.livejournal.com]

--hey.

[grabs the front of his shirt. he might be acting a little rough.]

What's wrong with you?

[destinedtinsel.livejournal.com]

[he's given a small flinch.]

... you can't hear it, can you? I'm h-hallucinating again, fuck...

[jailedbait.livejournal.com]

[.. sighs. nothing can ever be normal, can it? he just pulls Riku against his chest and cradles his head, eyes focused somewhere not on him.]

[destinedtinsel.livejournal.com]

[the touch makes him shiver all the way down his spine, and his hands are at his shoulders, digging in slightly. he's trying so hard to snap out of it.]

[jailedbait.livejournal.com]

[winces, pulling Riku back until he's pinned between the wall and the kid's heavy body, sighing and running fingers through his hair.]

[destinedtinsel.livejournal.com]

[it's dying down enough that he isn't so tensed, although it might be a little weird the way he's staring at Roxas' neck like someone about to bite it.]

[jailedbait.livejournal.com]

[that scar he put there is staring right back, so pink and angry and telling. sometimes in bed when he's in the realm between sleep and awake, he feels like it's bleeding, but he ignores it. it's almost the same with Riku now, trying to comfort him and yet ignore him.]

[destinedtinsel.livejournal.com]

[that scar's the thing bringing him back to earth, and he suddenly shudders, jerking his head back as if shoved out of a trance.]

--ah...

[jailedbait.livejournal.com]

[the one day he doesn't hide it with that cloth collar, too.]

Done?

[destinedtinsel.livejournal.com]

[slow, slow nod as he detaches himself hesitantly from him.]

... that doesn't happen often.

[jailedbait.livejournal.com]

... god.

[pulls him right back in again, kissing all over his face.]

You scared the shit out of me..

[destinedtinsel.livejournal.com]

[wraps his arms around him, kissing him back.]

I'm sorry. I'm serious, that's the second time I've had it happen in... four months or something. It's--It's just some sick hallucination.

[jailedbait.livejournal.com]

It's not your fault.

[it's all he says, pulling Riku with him as he slides down the wall, resting against the floor with a sudden onslaught of exhaustion.]

I still love you just as much.

[destinedtinsel.livejournal.com]

[he's quiet, pulling him closer as well and shifting them around. maybe he can't settle the other in his lap, but it's close.]

... I'm glad you were here.

[jailedbait.livejournal.com]

[as long as they're close, as long as they're in contact, he's fine right now. it's all he wants.]

Me too. I don't ever want you to break when I'm not around.